Tag: Solohux


OK, so life keeps on going.

Sleep, work, bills, appointments.
Most of the time it’s pretty monotonous and normal and for want of a better word… boring!!


I like to escape occasionally and that’s where movies step in followed by fandoms and obsessions.
For the most part, the hubby feels the same way.
We would never have met without Fandoms and obsessions.
We pretty much have the same taste in movies with few exceptions.

Every week in films, fandoms and fiction brings something new and this week I was given a particularly exciting thing to obsess about and it had an immediate knock on effect.

Recently I have become part of a fandom my husband does not share and cannot understand and I totally understand why.
It just makes my personal hobby a little lonely as, apart from my ‘online’ friends’, I have no-one to share this hobby with.

My husband has been reading fan-fiction for years and I used to laugh at him for it but then something happened last Xmas that changed my perspective.

Disney delivered a film fanboys had been dreaming of for years.
When Star Wars The Force Awakens hit our screens I was a little dubious because of the vain attempt at the prequels.
I was soon well and truly back into Star Wars fandom.
Where George Lucas misjudged what fans wanted…. Disney delivered…. and then some!!

Then around April/May I got fed up with the hubby telling me I really should try some fan-fiction. So I did a little digging.

I was blessed.

The first piece I had ever read in my entire life was called ‘Devour’ by ‘Solohux’ on a site called AO3.

It was Star Wars Force Awakens fan-fiction BUT with a little twist.
The wonderful thing about fan-fic is that existing places and characters and stories can be taken in totally different directions.
Questions can be asked like what if that event hadn’t happened? How would the story have diverted from what we know?
What if characters ended up in different relationships?
What if we dropped the characters we know into completely different universes?
What if?

Well, I found myself neck deep in what is affectionately known as ‘The Kylux Trash Compactor’.

Stories relating to the relationship between Kylo Ren and General Hux.
Now, given that General Hux only had about 3 or 4 minutes of screen time in the movie, the seemingly ‘seething’ hate and animosity he feels for Kylo Ren has been snatched by fandom and taken to the nth degree.

I cannot get enough.

Love/hate, hate/hate, slow burn to full on relationship, alternate universes, force sensitive Hux, Alpha/Omega, dom and sub – either way.

I have been completely anamoured by the Kylo/Hux relationship to the point where I actually started to write my own fan-fiction, encouraged by Solohux who is now one of the aforementioned ‘online’ friends on a site called Tumblr.

Then this week, something came across my dashboard on Tumblr that completely took my breath away.

This is absolutely stunning and I was completely mezmerised by it. I don’t think I have ever seen anything so sensual in my entire life.

Shortly after seeing this my mind started to wander and I had a thought.
I wanted Kylo belly dancing for Hux.
So I took a look on AO3 for any existing fiction and I found some!!
They were fun to read but they all had Kylo as a slave or working as a belly dancer and I had envisioned something a little different.

So I sat down one morning and wrote my own ficlet. I couldn’t stop!
2000 words later I had it and I absolutely love it!!

I can’t believe I’m actually going to do this but for any friends or family that may be interested in my writing, here is a link to my fic on AO3.
Please please please remember that this is based on a male/male relationship and if you are not open to that then please don’t read.
It’s safe, there’s no physical intimacy in this fic but the relationship is well established and physicality is heavily implied.

It’s called ‘The Gift’ Click HERE to follow the link.

If you read it, I would love to know what you think.
I have really enjoyed writing in the last few months and I’m seriously thinking about writing something original. Coming away from fandom and writing something of my own.
The only issue is coming up with an idea.
At least with fandom you have a baseline to start from!

Right, time to chillax and binge watch some ‘Queer as Folk’


7 hours.
There’s only another 7 hours to go before I FINALLY get to see Suicide Squad.
Whatever posessed me to get midnight tickets I’ll never know.
I’m getting a little bit excited now.

I have decided to drag myself away from my computer for the next hour or so.
We are desperately in need of some groceries if we are to eat over the weekend and I have become a little obsessed (yes even more so) about some fictions over the last few days and seriously neglected things.

I have felt a little like a troglodyte locked into my own little world at my desk reading an amazing series of fics, ‘Not About Angels‘ by  MellytheHun
3 parts, 43 chapters so far and as with all good fics, I stumbled onto it by accident but once I started reading I couldn’t stop!!

Now I am agonisingly waiting for an update to continue reading and find out how it’s going to end because right now my heart has been completely ripped out!!

Then I go an find that one of my favourite fic authors has started another Alpha/Omega story. Undoubtedly my favourite stories and yet another story I have to wait for an update on!!
Trapped by Solohux

That’s it.
I need to stop delving into all this amazing fiction until everything I am currently reading has been updated and completed!!
I think I now have about 5 or 6 stories on the go and waiting for them to get updates is agonizing!!

Right, time to actually get some work done………. but I might just nseek a look onto AO3 first….. you know….. get something bookmarked for later!!


So, I’m in the middle of three days off.
So far very relaxing although it wasn’t meant to be.
The two main jobs I had to do were hack down the jungle in the front garden and clean both of the cars.
However, the weather has had other ideas and put paid to both plans.

Yesterday I sorted my mop of hair our with a good scalping followed by a discreet covering of the greys. It’s shorter than I’ve been for a long time. The hairdresser couldn’t get much shorter without using clippers!!
It’s great for early mornings. Literally wash and go. No need to style dry.
That evening we went to the cinema and watched Independence Day: Resurgence which was actually a lot more fun than I thought it would be.

Today I was dragged into town by Dharma who wanted to spend her birthday money.
We had a quick visit from an old friend and took delivery of a new fridge freezer after the old one died a long and painful death over the previous week.
That on top of my car failing it’s MOT put the final nail in the coffin of any hope of anyone other than myself going to Italy for my Brother’s wedding next year.

After having a bit of a chat with a friend on Tumblr yesterday who suggested I should try some writing, I had an idea rattle around in my head over night and I decided to get it put into words.
I ended up writing a 1000 word piece of Kylux fluff and completely surprised myself.

For anyone interested you can follow THIS LINK to read it.
Don’t worry, it’s purely fluff. There isn’t even a kiss involved.
It’s called ‘Proximity Alert’ and it’s set in the week immediately after the destruction of Starkiller Base in Star Wars the Force Awakens.
It’s only been up for a few hours and has already had 66 hits, 11 Kudos and a couple of very encouraging comments, one of them from Solohux who is the author of the very first piece of Kylux fiction I ever read and who encouraged me to write this.
I just need to have another idea now!!!

Tomorrow I will be watching the next installment of Outlander on Prime before taking my Mum up to the cemetary to see Nan and Uncle Richard and Aunty Lesley.
Hopefully the weather will have improved enough to at least get the cars cleaned in the afternoon so my three days off won’t have been a total wash out.


I can’t believe I’m about to say this but…..

I’m feeling just a bit too chilled!!
Physically and mentally.

I need to do something and the idea of popping a movie on or reading another piece of fiction is just not going to cut it!

I woke up cold, I spent the morning FREEZING before caving and switching the heating back on.

I read an amazing piece of Kylux fiction. Screaming Colour by Solohux.
Had my heart ripped to pieces. Can’t wait for the final chapter.

Got out of the house for a little food shopping at Tesco as I’m at work for the next two days. Suppose I’d better feed the kids!!
2 x 12.5 hour shifts. Not much chance of any fan fiction or movies.

It’s now mid afternoon and I’m sat here blasting some Panic at the Disco and feeling completely chilled and ‘needing’ to do something.
I can’t believe I’m thinking it but a power walk may be in order.
Got to find some ear buds first.

Then the evening is mine before I have the think about the next two days.


The thing about obsessing is the wonderful things that are discovered because of it.

I believe I’ve mentioned before about the knock on effect that obsessing can have.
You’ll start to like an actor, for whatever reason, and then you just have to see more and more of their work.
You end up watching some out of this world films you may have passed on when they went through the cinema simply because something about them didn’t ‘click’ with you enough to make you want to see it or you simply didn’t even know the film existed.

Some of my favourite films of the last couple of years have come from digging into an actors back catalogue of films.

Before Karl Urban became known for Lord of the Rings, Star Trek and Dredd, he made some wonderful New Zealand movies.
The Price of Milk is a beautiful, if a little strange, movie that really tickles me.


Without my initial interest in Karl Urban I would never have know about this film.

Joel Kinnaman was a difficult one as his back catalogue of work is predominantly in Swedish!!
Finding his films with subtitles that are well translated was a bit of a challenge.
Even so, ‘In Your Veins’ has become one of my favourite films.


Jake Gyllenhaal is more of a case of finding a film I didn’t like!!
Bubble Boy springs to mind…. what a piece of shit. I couldn’t even get half way through the film before giving up.
Anyway, as much as I love him doing his action movies like Prince of Persia and Source Code, I also love his recent serious films, Nightcrawler, Southpaw and Demolition.
But after all that it still falls to the obligatory chick flick, rom com to become my favourite.
Love and Other Drugs is a beautiful film that has a bit of everything and one that I missed in the cinema because it didn’t catch my attention at the time.
Romance, comedy, drama and an absolutely adorable Jake.

Love and other drugs 2

Oscar Isaac, what can I say?
After Ex-Machina and Star Wars TFA, I dipped into his back catalogue too.
Revenge for Jolly has become a firm favourite. What an absolutely INSANE film!

Revenge for Jolly

But again, this is a film I’d never even heard of and would never have seen had I not been looking into Oscar’s back catalogue.

So now we get onto to the current KINGS!
My absolute number one Prince is of course Adam Driver.
It’s difficult to pinpoint my favourite film from his back catalogue because there are quite a few but if I was pressed I would have to go with Hungry Hearts which is an incredibly heart wrenching film and This is Where I Leave you, another rom com and family drama.

hungry hearts

this is where i leave you

And of course, my prince has a ‘would be’ Emperor in Domhnall Gleeson.
I am currently working my way through his back catalogue of work and as it stands, About Time is fast becoming a favourite!!
I seem to be a bit of a sucker for rom coms!!

About time

What I have noticed about Domhnall is that he’s at his best playing the awkward, gangly, bumbling type and he has the most incredible smile!
None of which comes into play as Emperor…. oops sorry… General Hux!!

It is my current batch of Domhnall movies that brings me onto old memories.
While watching Unbroken, set in a Japanese prisoner of war camp, I was reminded of an old movie I haven’t even thought about in years. Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence!!

Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence

What an amazing film with a stunning soundtrack. It’s one film that has never made it to my DVD collection after the move from VHS tapes….. until now. I think it is now even more poignant as it stars the ‘all too missed’ David Bowie.
It will be arriving in the post tomorrow!

So, now onto the naughty secret.
Go on, admit it, you read through this post just to get to the ‘Naughty Secret’!!

Anyway, I don’t shy away from my obsessions when it comes to my blogging but recent obsessions have taken me into a world I never thought I’d venture into.

Fan fiction.
The thing about fan fiction is that it can take you anywhere.
You start with the foundations from a film. The characters, the places, the feel of the universe they are set in and then you can literally write what you want.
You can take stories in any direction. You can ask the ‘what if’ question all the time and completely re-write what we already know into something completely different.

The last couple of weeks have seen my falling into an abyss of naughtyness.

I have always seen myself as a very open minded person when it comes to different kinds of relationships and this is something I hope I’m passing onto my kids.
However, when it comes to relationships I have always stayed with the ‘boy meets girl’ scenario.
Just look at the rom com movies I love. They make me feel all squishy and lovely.

So when I started looking at some fan fiction a few weeks ago, I kind of fell into a well and couldn’t get out.
I found myself reading about ‘boy meets boy’. Kylo Ren and General Hux to be precise and I found it incredibly…… erotic!
It certainly didn’t leave me feeling squishy and lovely. In fact I can’t tell you how it left me feeling but I’m sure you can imagine.
Forget 50 Shades of Grey!! This stuff is amazing and I am completely smitten with the idea of Kylo Ren and General Hux falling in love.

Then this morning I stumbled across this absolutely stunning piece of artwork by a fellow Tumblr.


It sums up the Kylux fandom in one, sweet, kiss.
I can’t stop reading the stuff and I’m not ashamed to admit it!

I must sincerely thank solohux and hollycomb for introducing me to this world and Holly…… I await your updates on ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’ with baited breath.


So, this week has seen me get thrown completely off guard.

I blame Tumblr.
In fact I blame Tumblr completely for feeding my obsessions and getting me hooked on new ones.

The fact that I’m 46 years old with 3 teenage daughters, a hard working hubby  and a respectable job doesn’t even seem to enter my head as I fall headlong into my movies, fandoms and obsessions.

It’s just so irresistible, sitting here with my morning cuppa and scanning the overnight Tumbling on my dashboard.
Every now and again an image will catch my attention. A photo, a piece of artwork, a nicely edited piece of film, a GIF.

However, something happened this week that caught me completely off guard.
After seeing various beautiful and intriguing pieces of artwork and mentions of pieces of fiction, I found myself on a fan-fiction site called ‘Archive Of Our Own’reading a piece of fiction called ‘Devour’ by Solohux.

It took my breath away.
I have always seen myself as a ‘traditionalist’ when it comes to relationships. You know… boy meets girl, lots of problems ensue whether it’s funny or serious, problems are solved and boy and girl have a happy ending…. blah blah blah…..

This story took me through a relationship I was completely not ready for and found myself completely blown away by the depth of feeling I had for the protagonists.
Boy meets boy. They go through complete hell together and come out at the end with a happy if uncertain future.
The fact that the protagonists are Kylo Ren and General Hux from my current favourite Star Wars fandom just ripped at my heartstrings even more!

After some messaging with the author of the piece, they recommended another piece of work that concentrated on the same coupling. A trilogy of pieces to be precise. ‘Children Wake Up’ by Hollycomb consisting of ‘Life Sentence, No Cellmate’, ‘Ceasefire’ and ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’.
I have to say I’ve been a little carried away.
I’ve already read the first two parts and had my heart completely ripped out!!
I have just started part three but have come to the realisation that this part is not yet finished. I’m crashing headlong into a story I don’t know when I’ll be able to finish.

The intensity with which I have been rooting for this relationship to have a happy ending has completely floored me.
The frustrating thing is that I have no-one to discuss it with.
I’m itching to have a face to face conversation with someone who is in the same boat.

My husband reads fan-fiction but he’s very ‘traditional’ when it comes to relationships (or so he says) and he certainly doesn’t want to talk about Kylo and Hux!!
My 19 year old is just not interested in any of it and the other two are just too young to even contemplate talking to them about it.

So, Tumblr is my melting pot.
I will continue to trawl through the photos, the artwork, the nicely edited pieces of film, the GIFs… I will continue to enjoy the fanfiction, even if I have to keep it bottled up to myself which is the most frustrating thing I think I’ve ever had to do!

And now, as much as I want to sit here all day and work my way through ‘Under the Ruins of the Walled City’, I actually have to do some work.
The damned 6 monthly house inspection is due and this weekend is the only chance I have at getting things presentable.
I will just have to wait until this evening to snuggle up and find out what happens when Kylo meets his mother again and will Hux make it out of that prison and will he ever be able to look Kylo in the eyes again?


OK, so it finally happened.
After seeing the hubby read fanfiction for a few years and seeing certain tags and artwork appearing on my tumblr dash, I decided to find out what all the fuss was about with fan-fiction.

Bear in mind, I’m not a big reader and it takes a lot to hold my attention.

I thought, if I’m going to do it, I’m going to do it in style!
So I picked my current favourite fandom. Star Wars Episode VII
I picked the tag that keeps popping up on my dash, Kylux! (I may try some Reylo next!)
I dived right into the ‘adult’ side of fan-fiction and……..

I was pleasantly surprised.

I picked a story with a tag line that sounded interesting.
‘Kylo’s heat suppressant medication gets destroyed on Starkiller Base. He goes into heat on board the Finalizer.’

That should give you a good idea as to the content of this story!!

As I started to read it was clear that I needed to distance myself from the movies.
I needed to keep the characters in mind but forget entirely about the ‘family friendly’ movies I’ve come to know and love since I was 8 years old! Or in this case 2 characters that I’ve fallen in love with since December!

As an adult I was able to imagine these characters in an entirely new way and once I’d opened my mind to all the different possibilities that the beings in another galaxy could be, I found myself engaging in a relationship I’ve never even dreamed of…. but I think I might now!!

So, I now have ‘An Archive of Our Own’ bookmarked and I plan to read more.
A huge thank you must go out to ‘Solohux’ who wrote ‘Devour’, this first fan-fiction I read and that opened my eyes to all possibilities in a galaxy far far away.

I don’t think I can look at General Hux and Kylo Ren in the same way again!