Tag: Hollycomb


It’s been an odd week.
Nothing much happening.

Highlight of the week so far was the chapter update on ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’.

Work has not been too bad.
I had a training day on Weds which was different. Nice break from the norm.

Marjorie wanted to see the new Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles movie so we took her last night.
I would like to say I enjoyed it like I did the first one but unfortunately I can’t.
It wasn’t too bad but I think they tried to do too much with it.

Anyway, I have found myself smiling at the oddest moments.
Driving on my own, walking the halls of the hospital, doing a bit of housework.
I think it’s all down to the fan fiction I’ve become addicted to.
I have become very invested in two characters and every now and again I’ll remember a bit of fluff from a story and there’s the smile!

I certainly won’t be able to prepare a stew for a while without grinning like a Cheshire cat thanks to the Children Wake Up Series!!! Thanks Holly!!!

I’m sat here on a break at work. Another 12.5 hour shift.
I have the weekend off. Ian is doing a bit of Armada gaming tomorrow. I may have to think about the garden at some point. It’s beginning to look like a jungle…. literally. I’ll post some before and after pics.
Other than that, I plan to be very chilled indeed.

Poor Paula is sat here with me regretting asking me about Star Wars but gratiously letting me rave on about Kylo’s tantrums and the moment I fell in love with him when he takes his helmet off!!
Don’t think she’ll ask again but at least it’s out of my system again for a while.

Just got to get through the rest of today.


I finally got to read chapter 15 of ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’ last night and it did not disappoint!!
OMG, how bittersweet the all too brief and longed for physical connection was for Ren and Hux.
10 more chapters of actual torture are surely to follow.
Will Ren get his connection back to the force?
Will Hux ever get out of that prison……alive?
Will they ever get the life they’ve dreamed for themselves?

Best not to think about it. I’ve got at least another week and a half to wait for chapter 16!!

At least I can concentrate today.


And this is why I have blogged very little this week.

12.5 hour shift on my feet on Saturday.
All day on my feet at MCM Comic Con on Sunday.
12.5 hour shift on my feet on Monday.
A bit of housework and a relatively quiet day on Tuesday.
12.5 hour shift on my feet on Wednesday.
A relaxing day where I stupidly felt the need for a power walk on Thursday.
12.5 hour shift on my feet today.

and I have another 12.5 hours to do tomorrow!!
My poor knee doesn’t know what’s hit it.
Think I’m running on adrenalin right about now.

Sunday is definately going to be a movie day.
I’m also hoping that Holly updates ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’ so I can have a good Kylux fix!

At least I came home from work to find this on my Tumblr Dash!

So happy with himself!! yt-1300f
Originally posted by yt-1300f.tumblr.com

Adam just looks so happy with himself!
Sent me to bed with a smile on my face.


The thing about obsessing is the wonderful things that are discovered because of it.

I believe I’ve mentioned before about the knock on effect that obsessing can have.
You’ll start to like an actor, for whatever reason, and then you just have to see more and more of their work.
You end up watching some out of this world films you may have passed on when they went through the cinema simply because something about them didn’t ‘click’ with you enough to make you want to see it or you simply didn’t even know the film existed.

Some of my favourite films of the last couple of years have come from digging into an actors back catalogue of films.

Before Karl Urban became known for Lord of the Rings, Star Trek and Dredd, he made some wonderful New Zealand movies.
The Price of Milk is a beautiful, if a little strange, movie that really tickles me.


Without my initial interest in Karl Urban I would never have know about this film.

Joel Kinnaman was a difficult one as his back catalogue of work is predominantly in Swedish!!
Finding his films with subtitles that are well translated was a bit of a challenge.
Even so, ‘In Your Veins’ has become one of my favourite films.


Jake Gyllenhaal is more of a case of finding a film I didn’t like!!
Bubble Boy springs to mind…. what a piece of shit. I couldn’t even get half way through the film before giving up.
Anyway, as much as I love him doing his action movies like Prince of Persia and Source Code, I also love his recent serious films, Nightcrawler, Southpaw and Demolition.
But after all that it still falls to the obligatory chick flick, rom com to become my favourite.
Love and Other Drugs is a beautiful film that has a bit of everything and one that I missed in the cinema because it didn’t catch my attention at the time.
Romance, comedy, drama and an absolutely adorable Jake.

Love and other drugs 2

Oscar Isaac, what can I say?
After Ex-Machina and Star Wars TFA, I dipped into his back catalogue too.
Revenge for Jolly has become a firm favourite. What an absolutely INSANE film!

Revenge for Jolly

But again, this is a film I’d never even heard of and would never have seen had I not been looking into Oscar’s back catalogue.

So now we get onto to the current KINGS!
My absolute number one Prince is of course Adam Driver.
It’s difficult to pinpoint my favourite film from his back catalogue because there are quite a few but if I was pressed I would have to go with Hungry Hearts which is an incredibly heart wrenching film and This is Where I Leave you, another rom com and family drama.

hungry hearts

this is where i leave you

And of course, my prince has a ‘would be’ Emperor in Domhnall Gleeson.
I am currently working my way through his back catalogue of work and as it stands, About Time is fast becoming a favourite!!
I seem to be a bit of a sucker for rom coms!!

About time

What I have noticed about Domhnall is that he’s at his best playing the awkward, gangly, bumbling type and he has the most incredible smile!
None of which comes into play as Emperor…. oops sorry… General Hux!!

It is my current batch of Domhnall movies that brings me onto old memories.
While watching Unbroken, set in a Japanese prisoner of war camp, I was reminded of an old movie I haven’t even thought about in years. Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence!!

Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence

What an amazing film with a stunning soundtrack. It’s one film that has never made it to my DVD collection after the move from VHS tapes….. until now. I think it is now even more poignant as it stars the ‘all too missed’ David Bowie.
It will be arriving in the post tomorrow!

So, now onto the naughty secret.
Go on, admit it, you read through this post just to get to the ‘Naughty Secret’!!

Anyway, I don’t shy away from my obsessions when it comes to my blogging but recent obsessions have taken me into a world I never thought I’d venture into.

Fan fiction.
The thing about fan fiction is that it can take you anywhere.
You start with the foundations from a film. The characters, the places, the feel of the universe they are set in and then you can literally write what you want.
You can take stories in any direction. You can ask the ‘what if’ question all the time and completely re-write what we already know into something completely different.

The last couple of weeks have seen my falling into an abyss of naughtyness.

I have always seen myself as a very open minded person when it comes to different kinds of relationships and this is something I hope I’m passing onto my kids.
However, when it comes to relationships I have always stayed with the ‘boy meets girl’ scenario.
Just look at the rom com movies I love. They make me feel all squishy and lovely.

So when I started looking at some fan fiction a few weeks ago, I kind of fell into a well and couldn’t get out.
I found myself reading about ‘boy meets boy’. Kylo Ren and General Hux to be precise and I found it incredibly…… erotic!
It certainly didn’t leave me feeling squishy and lovely. In fact I can’t tell you how it left me feeling but I’m sure you can imagine.
Forget 50 Shades of Grey!! This stuff is amazing and I am completely smitten with the idea of Kylo Ren and General Hux falling in love.

Then this morning I stumbled across this absolutely stunning piece of artwork by a fellow Tumblr.


It sums up the Kylux fandom in one, sweet, kiss.
I can’t stop reading the stuff and I’m not ashamed to admit it!

I must sincerely thank solohux and hollycomb for introducing me to this world and Holly…… I await your updates on ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’ with baited breath.


This morning I finished getting the house ready for our 6 monthly inspection tomorrow and by mid afternoon I was done.

So I decided to carry on reading the fan-fiction I’ve recently become hooked on.

I’ve been reading a series of stories called ‘Children Wake Up’ by Hollycomb.
They are set in my current favourite fandom. Star Wars.
They involve Kylo Ren and General Hux.
They are very adult reading material and are not for the faint hearted.

I never in my wildest dreams thought I would ever be reading anything like this.
As I stated in a previous blog, I always thought of myself as a traditionalist when it came to relationships but I have been thrown a complete curve ball with this particular pairing.

I don’t think I have ever been as invested in characters in a story as much as I have with Ren and Hux.
It’s been difficult reading at times and often gut wrenching.
This writer certainly likes to put her characters through the wringer!

I am now feeling a little shredded as I have come to the end of what is currently avaialble.

There are three stories to this series.
The first part is ‘Life Sentence, No Cellmate’ and it is set directly after the events of Force Awakens and in this story we discover the start of a relationship between Kylo Ren and General Hux.
Yes you read that right.
It is relatively short at just 3 chapters and 30,000 words but OMG!! It’s good stuff.

I can see the faces of my friends and family now and it’s a picture!!

Part 2 is ‘Ceasefire’ and this part continues the story but now things are beginning to fall apart and Ren and Hux find themselves in hiding while the First Order crumbles and Snoke becomes a real threat to Hux.
The writer is now getting into her stride as this part is 5 chapters long and 100,000 words.

Part three is ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’ and this part is still being written.
So far Hux has been on trial for his life, Ren has been reunited with his mother and has now taken the Millenium Falcon and is off to face Snoke alone and for what he hopes is the last time as it’s the only way he can have a future with and keep Hux safe.
I’ve just come to the end of chapter 12 of a planned 28!!
The gut wrenching realisation has now sunk in that there is currently no more to read.
I must wait for the author to update her fiction but thankfully she seems to do this quite regularly.
So instead of waiting for a favourite TV show to air on a weekly basis, I am now waiting with baited breath for the next chapter in this heart pounding and heart achingly beautiful story.
It’s currently at almost 190,000 words and she still has 16 chapters to go!!

I have no doubt it’s going to be a roller coaster the whole way!

These stories have a huge following and many fans of the work like to create artwork inspired by it.
Let me tell you there is some beautiful work out there.

Like this one by Lucy – Littleststarfighter.tumblr.com
AMAZING!! Captures Ceasefire beautifully.
Ceasefire 1

To be honest, the bulk of the artwork I’ve fallen in love with is by this artist but unfortunately I won’t be posting it here as My Dad reads my blog and I don’t want to give him a heart attack!!

So there we have it.
My journey into a whole new side of fandoms.
I honestly don’t know what took me so long to try it.
My husband has been reading fan-fiction for years and I’ve always scoffed at him for doing it.
Now I understand.


So, this week has seen me get thrown completely off guard.

I blame Tumblr.
In fact I blame Tumblr completely for feeding my obsessions and getting me hooked on new ones.

The fact that I’m 46 years old with 3 teenage daughters, a hard working hubby  and a respectable job doesn’t even seem to enter my head as I fall headlong into my movies, fandoms and obsessions.

It’s just so irresistible, sitting here with my morning cuppa and scanning the overnight Tumbling on my dashboard.
Every now and again an image will catch my attention. A photo, a piece of artwork, a nicely edited piece of film, a GIF.

However, something happened this week that caught me completely off guard.
After seeing various beautiful and intriguing pieces of artwork and mentions of pieces of fiction, I found myself on a fan-fiction site called ‘Archive Of Our Own’reading a piece of fiction called ‘Devour’ by Solohux.

It took my breath away.
I have always seen myself as a ‘traditionalist’ when it comes to relationships. You know… boy meets girl, lots of problems ensue whether it’s funny or serious, problems are solved and boy and girl have a happy ending…. blah blah blah…..

This story took me through a relationship I was completely not ready for and found myself completely blown away by the depth of feeling I had for the protagonists.
Boy meets boy. They go through complete hell together and come out at the end with a happy if uncertain future.
The fact that the protagonists are Kylo Ren and General Hux from my current favourite Star Wars fandom just ripped at my heartstrings even more!

After some messaging with the author of the piece, they recommended another piece of work that concentrated on the same coupling. A trilogy of pieces to be precise. ‘Children Wake Up’ by Hollycomb consisting of ‘Life Sentence, No Cellmate’, ‘Ceasefire’ and ‘Under the Ruins of a Walled City’.
I have to say I’ve been a little carried away.
I’ve already read the first two parts and had my heart completely ripped out!!
I have just started part three but have come to the realisation that this part is not yet finished. I’m crashing headlong into a story I don’t know when I’ll be able to finish.

The intensity with which I have been rooting for this relationship to have a happy ending has completely floored me.
The frustrating thing is that I have no-one to discuss it with.
I’m itching to have a face to face conversation with someone who is in the same boat.

My husband reads fan-fiction but he’s very ‘traditional’ when it comes to relationships (or so he says) and he certainly doesn’t want to talk about Kylo and Hux!!
My 19 year old is just not interested in any of it and the other two are just too young to even contemplate talking to them about it.

So, Tumblr is my melting pot.
I will continue to trawl through the photos, the artwork, the nicely edited pieces of film, the GIFs… I will continue to enjoy the fanfiction, even if I have to keep it bottled up to myself which is the most frustrating thing I think I’ve ever had to do!

And now, as much as I want to sit here all day and work my way through ‘Under the Ruins of the Walled City’, I actually have to do some work.
The damned 6 monthly house inspection is due and this weekend is the only chance I have at getting things presentable.
I will just have to wait until this evening to snuggle up and find out what happens when Kylo meets his mother again and will Hux make it out of that prison and will he ever be able to look Kylo in the eyes again?