So, it’s  been a pretty awful couple of weeks.
I’ve been feeling completely overwhelmed with everything that’s been going on and the last minute annual leave I’ve taken has helped immensely.

Ian is back at work…..sort of.
He’s now on a ton of Morphine and anti-sickness medications, which seem to be helping.
He is managing to get to work with the help of a colleague who is collecting him and bringing him home so he doesn’t have to drive. He works a couple of days from home and then takes a day of annual leave to recover and start again.

Marjorie is handling her Coeliac diagnosis really well. We are now just experimenting with what she can eat and it’s been a steep learning curve. The biggest thing we’ve learned is not to just jump to all the stuff that is branded as gluten free. Read labels!!!  Quite often you can stick to what you like without paying over the odds. You just have to be careful and read the labels.
Stupid little things like plain crisps. Marjorie will only eat plain crisps. We have found out that she can no longer eat ‘Walkers’ plain crisps but she CAN eat ‘Tescos’ plain crisps!!
Why pay £3 for a TINY bottle of gluten free mayonaise when mayonaise is gluten free anyway and you can buy a huge bottle of your favourite brand for the same price!!

With the house inspection out of the way and Ian’s car through it’s MOT we now only have to worry about getting my car through it’s MOT next month. I know it needs at least one new tyre but I’m hoping that will be it.

I’m now facing my final hurdle.
I had intended to actually start my Uni work over the next five days but my PC decided to die an ‘actual’ death a couple of days ago.
Thankfully, all of my Uni work and photos and everything important to keeping me sane at the moment is still in tact on the hard drive that my husband has saved, but now I am awaiting the arrival of a new base unit.

I’m actually quite excited about it.
My old PC was over 6 years old and in PC terms… that is ancient!
This new one is going to be so much faster and slicker but it’s going to take some time to get up and running and get all of my important files onto and organised and then I have to sink things up again and get to know it before I can start to do my Uni work.

The only thing I’m sure of now is that I WILL get started on Uni work at some point over the next five days!!
I’ve not been completely without computer access as you can tell by this blog, but my little tablet style laptop is no match for a real PC and I HATE this keyboard!!

Watch this space!!


Just as I was thinking things couldn’t get much worse.

My PC, my lifeline to sanity, the holder of knowledge and my entire first year of University work, has just decided to die on me.

Hopefully it just means a new base unit and my work is safe on individual drives…. or so the hubby says.

Me?…. I’m freaking out. In tears. Don’t know where the money is coming from for a new PC and I desperately need it right now to complete my Uni course.

What do I do?


So, things have been a little more settled this past week.
I spent time on the house and in particular, the garden, which is now a place I actually want to sit in and enjoy for a change.
I’m now sitting here waiting for the rental agency inspection which could take place anytime between 9 and 12.

Good news is that the only person left in the house is Murron!
Although, I really need her out of bed so her room can be inspected.

Dharma has just gone for her ‘officially’ last day of school before her exams start next week. Scary stuff!!

Marjorie has gone off to college, even though she’s got a stinking cold and yesterday she had confirmation that she does indeed have Coeliac disease!!
So I’ll be taking a long hard look at the cupboards in the kitchen later today and making a gluten free cupboard.
Time to start making some changes and hopefully Marjorie will get her pep back!
She’s now waiting for a dietician review but hopefully we will have made a good start on the gluten free change before then.

Ian is actually at work!
He did his first day in 6 weeks, 2 days ago and it went pretty well. He pushed it and went out for dinner with colleagues after work and he paid for it a little yesterday but he’s back at work today.
So fingers crossed that with his current medication level he can continue to do 2 days at work, 2 days working from home and then one day of annual leave each week to have a 3 day recovery period until his pinched nerve can be sorted.

I am feeling a little more chilled (or at least I will be when this inspection is over).
I can now start concentrating on Uni work again.
I’m actually at work for a day tomorrow, I have Uni on Monday and a placement day on Tuesday and then I have 5 days where I plan to get stuck into Uni work.
Take a long hard look at what needs to be done, and by when, and then make a plan and actually start!

Diet and exercise has gone out the window over the last couple of months and I’m really feeling it in my clothes.
Time to get back on track with that diet!!
17 months until my 50th. I want to be ‘at least’ a size 16 by then. It’s doable.


It’s been a busy and productive day today.
Unfortunately none of it Uni related.

The biggest thing I achieved today was not dying!!

For anyone who knows the area, I was driving out of Elliot Crescent towards the roundabout on Church Lane. This section is a one way street with cars parked on one side.
Once you’ve entered into it there is literally only room for the one car to pass down the road.
I had just turned to enter this road when a bloody great 4 x 4 vehicle, being chased at high speed by a police 4 x 4 came haring towards me, the wrong way down the road.
I had to literally slam my breaks on, as did the 4 x 4 as he screamed past me followed by the cops. He barely missed my car before screaming on.
I partially pulled into a little layby just around the bend as I was shaking so badly.
The people in the first house who had heard everything came to see if I was alright and then the bloody 4 x 4 came screaming back down the road from behind me!
He raced out onto the roundabout, followed by the cops, he went all the way around and excited towards the traffic lights at the church but by this time, a big motor bike had become involved and stopped in front of the cop car, giving the 4 x 4 time to get away, before he too, screeched up the road.
By the time I got home, I was still shaking.

Anyway, I did a Tesco run this morning and tidied Marjorie’s bedroom.
I picked Ian’s car up after PASSING it’s MOT!!! Whoo hoo!
This is when I escaped death!
Then I set to jet washing the side passage and patio that had become covered in thick moss and muck.
4 hours later, it looks amazing.
I got a little carried away and started on the garden furniture too.
Then I thought I’d better call it a night before the neighbours started complaining about the noise of the jet washer.
I plan to finish it, and the windows and sills tomorrow.

Now I know, I’ll have somewhere nice to sit and have some wine, when taking a break from the Uni work I ‘should’ be doing!!

Now it’s time to chill.
Take some pain relief.
And some wine.
Attempt a movie without falling asleep!!


Time outs give us time to catch up on things.
I’ve done a little work today and now I’m playing.

I’d forgotten about this little hidden gem!!
Belly dancing is not just for women and this guy is hypnotic!
Wait until the change in pace at 2:30.

Now, what to watch tonight.
Might just have to do some naughty streaming.


Today is the first day of some much needed annual leave.
After a bit of a wobble last week at work, I decided I needed a time out.
I still have to do my Uni day and Placement day but I’ve taken some time away from my work base to get back on top of things.
So, although I’ve taken a break, there’s still plenty to do before our inspection.
Spring clean from top to bottom.
Garden tidy up.
Get started in earnest with some Uni work.

Today I GUTTED my bedroom.
With Ian permanently camped in it at the moment, it’s difficult to keep it tidy.
It was in need of a serious tidy and clean, so I kicked him out for a couple of hours while I tackled it.

Then I chilled with some wine and watched ‘Call Me By Your Name’ for the umpteenth time.
Now I’m having a sort out of my computer, organising some Uni bits and pieces with a film called ‘Mine’ playing in the background.
A very underated film but very much worth a watch.

Tomorrow, I may tackle the girls bedrooms.
I’m certainly not get any gardening done with the rain we’ve just had.
Hopefully the weather will improve by the weekend because I seriously need to tidy the garden before the inspection on the 11th.

So there’s plenty of wine in the house. Sadly not enough nibbles but that can be rectified with the shops just over the road.
This evening is a chillax evening with the knowledge that I haven’t got work tomorrow.

I can breath.

With that said, I had an amazing day in placment yesterday. I got to assist in a Pleural Tap.
1.5 litres of fluid removed from a man’s lung!! Unbelievable.
He was wheelchaired in and walked out!
I just hope that nothing sinister comes from the investigations on the fluid.
Then in the afternoon, I met an amazing couple dealing with the wife’s COPD. Such a humble couple and so grateful for the service the hospital is providing.
I even got a kiss on the cheek from the Hubby when I took them to their car to retrieve our wheelchair.
Made my day.


I started blogging over ten year ago as a bit of fun and I’ve found it has become quite therapeutic. Somewhere to vent occasionally and let out my frustrations.
Mostly I post about things I love, things I’ve enjoyed doing and for the most part, the best bits in my life.

What you don’t see is what’s going on ‘behind the scenes’ so to speak.
The bad things.
Slowly building up until at some point, the surface bursts and out pour the emotions.

Well, this has just happened

I think I come across as a very cheerful ‘nothing can phase me’ kind of a person.
Well don’t judge a book by it’s cover.
When I started back at Uni I jokingly said there would be tears this year. I just didn’t expect them quite so soon.

The last month or so, I’ve been letting things build up, telling myself that everything is going to be OK when, in fact, I needed to take a time out.

Waiting on Marji’s Endoscopy results is frustrating more than worrying and will mean a change in diet and shopping if Coeliac is confirmed.

Ian’s incapacity and inability to be able to work with sick pay fast running out and possible treatment another couple of months away is suddenly making things sickeningly worrying.
The fact that his car is going in for an MOT it is probably going to fail on 5th May is not helping with the financial worry.

Uni work has been full on over the last few weeks and I’m still trying to get my head around where to start. It’s going to be a tough year.

To add to it all is that we are having the first of our twice yearly inspections from the rental agency on the 11th May which means that the garden needs a good tidy and the house needs a good spring clean from top to bottom. With Ian unable to do anything and the kids all doing their own thing with exams and college and work, this all falls on my head and I just don’t have that kind of spare time at the moment.
The last thing we need is to be kicked out of the house because we’re not looking after it!!

The only thing keeping me sane is work.
When I’m at work I get to think about everything but my own problems.
I work with a great team who never fail to make me laugh.
They are supportive and encouraging my learning.
I think this is why I had a little melt down yesterday when I had a chat with my manager.
That bubbling volcano finally erupted.

So, I am taking some last minute annual leave over the next few weeks.
I will still be doing Uni on Mondays and placements on Tuesdays and apart from one day where I’m still needed, I won’t be in my own work place again until 25th May.

Time to get the house in order and the inspection out of the way and time to get my head around my uni work.
Hopefully by that time we’ll also have an answer for Marji and Ian will at least be showing some signs of improvement.

Either that or a HUGE lotto win could be the answer!!!