It’s been a week since I last posted.
That last post was fairly upbeat and hopeful and written very early in the morning before work.

Later that day, I got some news that quite literally turned my whole week upside down.
I found out that I had somehow failed my last assignment for Uni….. by just 4 points!

I was shocked and annoyed with myself, especially after I got some feedback and realised that I had made some really stupid mistakes and quite frankly, it would appear that I had become a little complacent and lazy on that last assignment.

Today I spent time working through the feedback and correcting stupid little mistakes but I am still doubting myself. What you need to understand is that a re-submission will not score higher than a D- regardless of how well it is re-worked, so I am not going to kill myself trying to write an ‘A’ or ‘B’ grade piece of work, but I do need to make sure it’s good enough to pass the second time.

The stupidity of it all is that with all my previous grades, even with a D- for my last piece, I will still be walking away with a distinction for my foundation degree.

As I sat here today, working on my re-write and stressing over it, I got more news.

It looks like the exam board will not be ratifying the grades until the 27th February and it’s not until after this date that they will issue a re-submission date.

Then I will have to wait for 20 working days from the re-submission date to find out my grade and looking at the calendar, it is highly unlikely that I will be graduating with the rest of my cohort on April 3rd.

Absolutely, totally gutted.

How do I feel right now?
Well, I’ve just ordered a take out and I’m about to pour a huge JD and coke.
I need to step away from it for the evening.

So, the struggle is not quite over.
I’m back to being a complete mess with my mind in a hundred directions and it’s showing at work as I forget to do the simplest things.

Seeing the rest of my Cohort celebrating and congratulating each other on social media has not helped in the slightest. Don’t get me wrong, I’m really happy for them, but every post that pops up on my timeline is like a kick in the teeth right now.

I just want this all to end now.
I’ve had enough.
I want my life back!


A few weeks ago I wrote about my hopes for the BAFTAs. (HERE)

So how did my predictions go?

Well, out of the 5 nominations that BlacKkKlansman had, they got 1 for Best Adapted Screenplay.

Adam did not win Best Supporting Actor. The Title went to Marhershala Ali who also won the title at the Golden Globes. This does not bode well for Adam at the Oscars!! (I’m not bitter…honest)

As I predicted, Rami Malek won Best Actor for his portrayal of Freddie Mercury. He is surely going to be getting the Oscar.

I also predicted that Letitia Wright would win the EE Rising Star award. How could she not. It’s voted for by the public and the public love Black Panther. It was a no brainer.

The Favourite was a big winner for the evening but I have still to see it and Roma was another big star of the evening. Winning Best Film, Best Director, Best Cinematography and Best Film Not in the English Language.

I’m struggling with that one a little. I have seen the film and although I can see that it is beautifully filmed and fully deserving of the Cinematography award, I cannot see how it won Best film! Green Book and BlacKkKlansman were so much better and much more entertaining. I found Roma to be an absolute snorefest!

My only saving grace now is that Mahershala Ali already won an Oscar 2 years ago for Moonlight and the Academy rarely gives another Oscar so quickly and so close so there is still a chance Adam could claim it.
Then again, I could be just grabbing at straws.

Anyway, this is making me late for work!!
Got to go.



Why haven’t I watched this before?!

IMDB states….
In 1667, 28-year-old all-powerful king of France, Louis XIV, decides to build the greatest palace in the world – Versailles. But drained budget, affairs and political intrigues complicate things.

I discovered the first two season on Prime a couple of days ago and I’ve been binge watching it as much as possible ever since. I’m almost half way through season 2.

The frustrating thing is, I know there is a season three but it’s not on Prime yet, so I’m just going to have to wait.

I love a good bodice ripper film or series and to be honest, nothing has come close to the Tudors since that series ended.
The last two years I have been a little pre-occupied with University work so binge watching anything went out the door or I was just too tired to stay awake.

As I watched, I fell in love with Philippe, the brother of King Louis XIV (The Sun King) and his drama queen of a partner, Chevalier.

They are amazing!
They are so snippy with each other. Chevalier is high maintenance but Philippe puts up with him because he quite clearly loves him, much to the annoyance of his brother Louis!
Into season 2 and Philippe is onto his second wife (as ordered by Louis) and I don’t think she’s going to be quite as accommodating as Philippe’s first wife. Chevalier is not taking things very well.

I did a little studying about Philippe and Chevalier. (I looked at Wiki)
Philippe was apparently very open about his homosexual behaviour and freely acted effeminately. He would often dress in ladies clothing. He reportedly carried on open romantic affairs with German nobles, with no regard to either of his two wives. Among Philippe’s lovers, one man stands out, Philip of Lorraine-Armagnac, or Chevalier de Lorraine, who was described as “insinuating, brutal and devoid of scruple”. As a member of the House of Guise, ranking as a prince etranger, Philippe could keep him near while at court and promote him within his own household without initially evoking scandal or offending sensibilities.

I fell in love with them even more!!

Right, time for some dinner and then onto the next episode!


Deep breath.
I finally did it.
I actually got to see ‘The Man Who Killed Don Quixote’.

……..and I wasn’t disappointed!!

After all the problems this film has gone through in the last year (well 25 years really) but particularly in the last year, I was really beginning to think I would never get to see this film.

After a small heart attack when I realised this was a German release of the Bluray, and that everything on the cover and all of the menu titles were written in German and when the film was played it was DUBBED in german!!….. I calmed down, went through all the settings and realised I could actually play it in the original English format. Any subtitles that came up, came up in both German and English.

So I settled myself down and watched it.

What can I say?
It is your ‘typical’ Terry Gilliam film.
Crazy, quirky, fanciful, amusing, stunning and beautifully filmed with some amazing imagery.
Johnathan Pryce is superb as Don Quixote but Adam Driver is out of this world as Toby!!

For anyone who says that Adam can’t be a leading, romantic interest, think again!
He starts the film as a bit of an arsehole but goes through a full range of emotions from confusion, surprise, anger, love and mental breakdown, and he does it all seamlessly.
The scene where he dances with Angelica in period costume sent shivers up my spine.

I think this little video from Cannes last year sums things up quite nicely, but even here, Adam has a dig at himself when he says ‘It’s also good to have that beautiful landscape because when our acting is really bad you can just look at the mountains!!’.

Believe me when I say, there is no bad acting in this film!


So my film arrived!!
I had a bit of a wobble when I realised it was designed for the German market, so everything is in German including the voiceovers!!


There is an option to change to English but it will still mean that if there are any subtitles in the film, they may still be in German!

So, here I go.
I am going to put my feet up for a few hours with my wine and nibbles and what I seriously hope is a good film!
Stay tuned and I’ll let you know.


Back in April 2018 (HERE) I wrote about a film called ‘The Man Who Killed Don Quixote’.

Premiering in Cannes in May 2018 and Directed by Terry Gilliam, but most importantly, starring Adam Driver who looks AMAZING in it!

The only problem now is that I have been waiting patiently for it to arrive because it has been tied up in a legal battle about rights ownership ever since!!

It has been shown at countless film festivals across Europe, even here in the UK, that I couldn’t attend and it has been released at various locations across Europe, but the legal battle has, so far, stopped it from going on general release worldwide.


I keep a check on it in the hope that I will get to see it in some form and a few weeks ago I spotted it in the DVD/Bluray section on Amazon.
It was listed as ‘Currently unavailable’ and they didn’t know if they would be getting it or not, but it also had a date of Feb 7th with no pre-sale option.

I was intrigued and I kept my eye on it.
When I checked the site on Feb 7th, there it was!!! For sale with delivery for TODAY!!
I smashed the buy button so quick I nearly broke it!

I am writing this on Saturday morning and this is it’s current status….

Soooo close, but I’m not holding my breath.
I was let down with an order over Xmas that they eventually realised they couldn’t fulfill and refunded. So until this order arrives through my door, I won’t believe it’s a reality and I will FINALLY be getting to see it.
I would have rather seen it in the cinema but this is better than nothing and at least I get to see it again and again to my hearts content.

My only worry now is that I’ve hyped myself up about it too much.
I know it’s going to be a quirky and typically ‘Terry Gilliam’ film and I have enjoyed his films in the past, particularly ‘The Fisher King’ and ‘Twelve Monkeys’.

The Red Knight imagery in the Fisher King was really stunning!!

So! I need to take my mind off of this so I am going into town with the hubby while he gets his eyes checked. We’re going for a spot of lunch somewhere and then doing a bit of a Tesco shop.
I will be topping up the wine and nibbles so that I can put my feet up and ‘hopefully’, FINALLY, enjoy ‘The Man Who Killed Don Quixote’ tonight.

Then I have to seriously think about getting back on my diet on Monday.
I haven’t been too well over the last three weeks and it’s gone to pot! With lots of comfort eating and way too much wine.

Need to get myself a little bit fitter if I’m going to be trekking all over London for 4 days with daughter number one in June!!