Today is the first day of some much needed annual leave.
After a bit of a wobble last week at work, I decided I needed a time out.
I still have to do my Uni day and Placement day but I’ve taken some time away from my work base to get back on top of things.
So, although I’ve taken a break, there’s still plenty to do before our inspection.
Spring clean from top to bottom.
Garden tidy up.
Get started in earnest with some Uni work.

Today I GUTTED my bedroom.
With Ian permanently camped in it at the moment, it’s difficult to keep it tidy.
It was in need of a serious tidy and clean, so I kicked him out for a couple of hours while I tackled it.

Then I chilled with some wine and watched ‘Call Me By Your Name’ for the umpteenth time.
Now I’m having a sort out of my computer, organising some Uni bits and pieces with a film called ‘Mine’ playing in the background.
A very underated film but very much worth a watch.

Tomorrow, I may tackle the girls bedrooms.
I’m certainly not get any gardening done with the rain we’ve just had.
Hopefully the weather will improve by the weekend because I seriously need to tidy the garden before the inspection on the 11th.

So there’s plenty of wine in the house. Sadly not enough nibbles but that can be rectified with the shops just over the road.
This evening is a chillax evening with the knowledge that I haven’t got work tomorrow.

I can breath.

With that said, I had an amazing day in placment yesterday. I got to assist in a Pleural Tap.
1.5 litres of fluid removed from a man’s lung!! Unbelievable.
He was wheelchaired in and walked out!
I just hope that nothing sinister comes from the investigations on the fluid.
Then in the afternoon, I met an amazing couple dealing with the wife’s COPD. Such a humble couple and so grateful for the service the hospital is providing.
I even got a kiss on the cheek from the Hubby when I took them to their car to retrieve our wheelchair.
Made my day.


I started blogging over ten year ago as a bit of fun and I’ve found it has become quite therapeutic. Somewhere to vent occasionally and let out my frustrations.
Mostly I post about things I love, things I’ve enjoyed doing and for the most part, the best bits in my life.

What you don’t see is what’s going on ‘behind the scenes’ so to speak.
The bad things.
Slowly building up until at some point, the surface bursts and out pour the emotions.

Well, this has just happened

I think I come across as a very cheerful ‘nothing can phase me’ kind of a person.
Well don’t judge a book by it’s cover.
When I started back at Uni I jokingly said there would be tears this year. I just didn’t expect them quite so soon.

The last month or so, I’ve been letting things build up, telling myself that everything is going to be OK when, in fact, I needed to take a time out.

Waiting on Marji’s Endoscopy results is frustrating more than worrying and will mean a change in diet and shopping if Coeliac is confirmed.

Ian’s incapacity and inability to be able to work with sick pay fast running out and possible treatment another couple of months away is suddenly making things sickeningly worrying.
The fact that his car is going in for an MOT it is probably going to fail on 5th May is not helping with the financial worry.

Uni work has been full on over the last few weeks and I’m still trying to get my head around where to start. It’s going to be a tough year.

To add to it all is that we are having the first of our twice yearly inspections from the rental agency on the 11th May which means that the garden needs a good tidy and the house needs a good spring clean from top to bottom. With Ian unable to do anything and the kids all doing their own thing with exams and college and work, this all falls on my head and I just don’t have that kind of spare time at the moment.
The last thing we need is to be kicked out of the house because we’re not looking after it!!

The only thing keeping me sane is work.
When I’m at work I get to think about everything but my own problems.
I work with a great team who never fail to make me laugh.
They are supportive and encouraging my learning.
I think this is why I had a little melt down yesterday when I had a chat with my manager.
That bubbling volcano finally erupted.

So, I am taking some last minute annual leave over the next few weeks.
I will still be doing Uni on Mondays and placements on Tuesdays and apart from one day where I’m still needed, I won’t be in my own work place again until 25th May.

Time to get the house in order and the inspection out of the way and time to get my head around my uni work.
Hopefully by that time we’ll also have an answer for Marji and Ian will at least be showing some signs of improvement.

Either that or a HUGE lotto win could be the answer!!!


This blog is only a couple of days late.

Earlier in the week I went to London to see one of my favourite bands. CC Smugglers.

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It was supposed to be me and Ian but Ian has some real problems with a trapped nerve at the moment and literally cannot stand and walk around for more than an hour or two, so London was out of the question.
So I took my eldest daughter, Murron, who is also a Smugglers fan.

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I’ve blogged about the Smugglers before.
They are a local band. One of them actually works at the Hospital with me.
They are AMAZING live.

Over the last year they have been raising money using ‘Pledgemusic’ so that they can record their first official album and it is now just about ready for release.
I pledged to get the tickets for the show we were going to see.

Anyway, we decided to make the most of the day and headed into London by train just before 10am.
As Ian wasn’t with me, it was decided that I should do things that I’ve never done before in London so Murron planned the day.

We arrived in London at around 11am and we made our way to London Bridge and Borough Market.
Murron got a faceful of Mac ‘n’ Cheese with pulled pork and cheese sauce and I got to try a Sea Urchin!

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Then we arranged to meet Charlotte, one of Murron’s friends who works in London, for a lunchtime drink at one of my favourite pubs, The Horniman, by HMS Belfast.

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After that, we headed up to Camden where Murron showed me the fabulous Market around Camden Lock and took me to see Cyber Dog, a very alternative fashion store with an 18+ only floor which was quite interesting! I will neither confirm or deny that I treated myself!!
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Of course, Murron found a little music den and just ‘had’ to try one of the guitars.

After Camden, we headed over to Soho to check out Crumbs and Doilies.
We treated ourselves to a mini cake because we didn’t want to spoil dinner and it was delicious but I have to say I was a little dissapointed with the shop itself.
Very small, and not much on display, so we didn’t stay long.

Then we headed over to Covent Garden to find the Hospital Club where the gig was to take place to get our bearings. On the way we walked right past Choccywoccydoodah!!
Of course we went in and had a nose around.

Then we went and found a pub for dinner.
One large steak and a burger later, we headed back to the Hospital club and as always, the smugglers were brilliant!!

The photo of the day had to be this one….. taken mid-song with Richie, the lead singer.
Unfortunately not very flattering for me!! Cheesy grin and nasal flair! But lots of fun.

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Then, one very long day and 18 kilometers of walking later we headed back home and got to bed at just before 1am.

I have to say that when I have a bit of money set aside, a trip back to Camden is on the books!!


So, tomorrow is a day I’ve been waiting for since the beginning of November 2017 when I bought the tickets.
A favourite local band have been raising money through ‘Pledgemusic.com’ to be able to record their first album.
They have been selling things like tote bags, t-shirts, signed CD’s, right up to a full band house show ranging from £10 to £1700.
The good news is that they’ve recorded the album!!

I couldn’t afford, much but two tickets to their ‘secret show’ in Covent Garden wasn’t going to break the bank and it means an intimate show of only 130 pledgers!
We only found out recently that the show is at the Hospital Club in Covent Garden tomorrow evening. I’m so looking forward to it.

I was originally going to attend with my husband but unfortunately, with a pinched nerve in his neck, he’s in no condition to be stomping all over London so it has been decided that I am going with my eldest Daughter, Murron!!

Should I be worried!!!
As it turns out, yes I should. This is Murron we’re talking about!

I suppose it’s my own fault.
I wanted to do things I’ve never done before in London so Murron has basically planned the day.

We are leaving Bedford at around 10am and arriving in London St Pancras just after 11am.
We will then head down to London Bridge for a light lunch with a friend of Murron’s that works in London before we have a wander around Borough Market.
We are then going to head up to Camden where Murron is going to take me around the market and a place called Cyber Dog!! Apparantly the third floor of this place is strictly for 18+ peeps!

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After Camden we are heading over to Soho to visit Crumbs and Doilies. I keep telling Murron that Cupcake Jemma probably won’t be front of house in the shop but she wants to go anyway.

After Soho we will be heading over to Covent Garden for some dinner before the show.
I just hope I’m not too knackered to enjoy it!


Next month sees the 71st Cannes Film Festival in France and I’m excited to say that my main man, Adam Driver, has not just one, but TWO films being premiered there.
One in Competition and one closing the festival.

The one in competition is Black Klansman directed by Spike Lee.
It tells the true story of Ron Stallworth who was an African-American police officer from Colorado, who actually managed to infiltrate a local Ku Klux Klan and became the head of the local chapter! His story was revealed in a 2006 tell all book of the same name.
That’s as much as I know about it so far. I have no idea what part Adam will be playing.
I’m hoping he will be Ron’s white colleague who went to the meetings in Ron’s place as it wouldn’t feel right if Adam was playing an actual ‘hate filled’ moron.

Anyway, the second film is ‘The Man Who Killed Don Quixote’ directed by Terry Gilliam.
I’ve blogged about this one already and I’ve been waiting a LONG time for it to arrive.

Don Quixoted poster

It gets released in France on the same day but there is still no release date for the UK!!

With 2 films at Cannes, I’m hoping that Adam will be in attendance. It makes sense. The timing is just right. It leaves him a couple of months to promote both of these films and have a bit of ‘down’ time before he starts to film ‘Star Wars Episode 9’ in July.

His last attendance at Cannes gave us some beautiful photos.

I need more!! Roll on May.


I had a lovely day at work yesterday.
Not too busy, very chilled, good chat with my new mentor and i’m finally getting a plan for my work based learning over this next year.

Today is going to be a little bit patchy. Lots to do and not enough time.
So a little blogging this morning, followed by a quick run to Tesco, followed by some housework, followed by some Uni work.

The walking can take a break today. I don’t want to push the knee too much.
The fact that I’ve walked a grant total of 39.65 Km in the last 4 days which is 50.399 steps means that ‘technically’ I’ve actually hit my 10000 steps target for today (day 5) anyway.
I will probably do some weights and situps a little later instead.
That’s my excuse and I’m sticking to it.


So earlier this week I started a new regime.
I set my steps target to 10000 a day, which is around 7.5 kilometers.
When I’m at work this is no problem as I regularly smash that and head towards 15000.
I actually walked 10.75 kilometers at work yesterday!
It’s my days off that are lacking.

I have seriously reduced my alcohol intake (even though I currently have a nice large bottle of chilled corona on the desk)
Seriously, even my Mum noticed the lack of wine bottles in the kitchen.

I have been healthier with my food choices.
Less meat, loads more veg and salad and I’ve eaten more strawberries, kiwis and bananas in the last week than I have done in the last six months!! and I’m not snacking as much either.

I think I may have lost a couple of pounds, but I plan to take things slow, make it a lifestyle change and not stress about treating myself occasionally.
So far, so good.

Lets see how long I can keep it up.