Just a quick blog before bed.
I got my first presentation result back today.
In fact, it’s the first result of the whole Uni year.


To say I’m a little chuffed is an understatement.
I’ve not taken to the second year very well and I was so worried I wasn’t getting back on track with things.
This has given me a bit of a confidence boost.
I can do this!


A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away……

Well, actually not that far away.
55 miles or just over an hour in the car at Pinewood Studios in London and some of it, right on my doorstep at the Cardington Airship Sheds just 3 miles away!!
Star Wars episode nine will start filming on Wednesday this week!!Star wars blue

Redemption for Kylo?
Balance for Kylo and Rey?
Dare I say the word ‘grey’?
Only 16 months to go to find out.

The cast has FINALLY been confirmed.
Adam and Daisy will obviously be reprising their roles of Kylo and Rey.
John Boyega, Oscar Isaac and Kelly Marie Tran will be back as Finn, Poe and Rose.
Mark Hamill is back as Luke, even though he died in the last film so it’s likely that force ghosts will be back. Will Uncle Luke be tormenting Kylo?
Carrie Fisher is returning as Leia!! and they are staying true to their word about not using CGI to create Leia by using existing unreleased footage that was filmed during the first two movies.
A welcome return to the SW universe is Billy Dee Williams as Lando Calrissian.
And yes… my General is back to HOPEFULLY kick some ass before he ultimately dies as Domhnall Gleeson reprises his role of General Hux.

And there you have it.
I don’t have much in the way of expectations.
I’ve learnt over the last few years that most of the fun of these films is the speculation about story lines and the build up to each release and then ultimately having everything knocked on the head and going in completely the opposite direction.

I know that I would love to see redemption for Kylo. He may not survive but I want him redeemed. I also want to see at least one scene where he confronts his Mother. I’m just hoping that a scene like that has been filmed previously and never used.

I want more information about Rey. There is something very different and powerful about her. It needs explanation. How and why is she still linked to Kylo through the force. Snoke said that he’d created the link but they were still linked at the end of Last Jedi AFTER Snoke had been killed.

What I want most of all from the last film is to finally see General Hux in all his glory.
Kicking Kylo’s ass and biting back after everything he went through in the Last Jedi.
In the final shot of him in the Last Jedi, he looks like a man with a burning desire for revenge and is just biding his time until he gets his chance.
He’s going to die doing it, I have no doubt about that, but give him a chance to get his dignity back, please!! Domhnall may be a funny guy and General Hux was the comic relief for the Last Jedi but (if you read the books) Hux has a past and he’s pretty ruthless. Give him chance to show it. (Beyond blowing up a few planets of course)
He even shares something in common with Kylo in the fact that he killed his own father!
Technically he got someone else to do the killing, but that’s just semantics.

Hux dog

And so it begins. A 16 month wait for a conclusion.
16 months of reading what people are speculating.
16 months of taking in any snippet of information we are given or photo that is released.

And now I have to get back to the mundane task of housework and uni work.
Oh the joy.


Today has been a good day.
We finally got a bit of a break in the current heat wave. Some rain showers that have cleared the air and cooled things down. Not that I want to get rid of the sun!! We just needed a break from it.
It doesn’t look like the temperature will get much over 26 or 27 degrees over the next two weeks either, so sleeping at night should be a bit more bearable.

I went into town with my two youngest daughters this morning to do a bit of shopping.
Dharma, my youngest got her first pay cheque this week!!
They both decided to treat their Mum to lunch. Lovely.

Then we did a bit of a top up shop for the freezer and cupboards before winging our way to the cinema to watch Mission Impossible fallout. Brilliant!!

Just a nice simple, normal, family day.
Unfortunately it will be spoiled tomorrow by housework and uni work.
The end of this course cannot come soon enough!


I don’t know why I do it to myself.
Every year I will start a diet.
I’ll do well, feel great and then…….
I start going back to old ways.
I’ll start snacking again because… I’ve done so well, one snack won’t hurt.
I’ll start drinking again because…. I’ve done so well, I’ve worked so hard, I deserve it.

Before you know it, I’m back to square one.
Every time I eat the snacks or drink the alcohol I feel crap!
It’s not a treat anymore.
I feel bloated and horrible.
I undo all the good work I’d done previously!
So why do I bloody do it?!!

Time to crack the whip with myself.
I know where I’m going wrong. I’m not stupid.
The meals I actually eat aren’t bad, it’s what I drink with them or eat in between them that’s doing the damage.
When I was dieting before Italy last year, I would go for a walk if I felt like snacking or I would drink a glass of water.
So, time to get into that mind frame again.

I am fast heading for 50 and I’ll be damned if I’m bigger than a size 16 when I get there!

I spent a couple of hours going through my Uni work this afternoon and making sense of what still has to be done and try to work out a time frame for writing.
It’s now a little clearer and I have absolutely no idea how I’m going to manage it all so looking after myself and not moping into snacks, wine and beer is probably a good start.

It’s a long work week this week.
Early shift tomorrow with two long days back to back on Thursday and Friday.
I’m doing some mandatory update training on Weds for a couple of hours and then my weekend will see me get stuck into some Uni work.
What is going to make things a little harder is my Mum will be away for a couple of weeks from tomorrow so I will have to keep on top of the washing and the ironing.
Or should I say…. the other four adults in this house will have to step up….. I’m just going to have to crack the whip.

Should be interesting.


It’s a sad state of affairs when the most exciting thing I have to look forward to is the release of Peter Rabbit on Bluray on Monday!!

Yes, yes…. it’s a beautiful film.
It’s hilariously funny.
Beautifully animated.
And yes….. Domhnall Gleeson is in it.

That said, half of my family are going to be travelling to fuerteventura over the next week for my cousins wedding!
I am absolutely gutted that I can’t go but after last year in Italy for my Brother’s wedding, it just wasn’t something we could afford again this year.

So, I am plodding along with work and Uni.
I got my first presentation out of the way last Monday. I just have to wait for the result in a couple of weeks.
Until then, I am starting on the next presentation and taking a look at the essays due in October.
I have managed to get some annual leave in late August although I’ve just realised that my next presentation is due right in the middle!! Typical.

Anyway, work has been going well. Extremely busy, but well.
I’m feeling more and more confident in what I do on a daily basis so this Uni course is definitely having some sort of affect.

That’s my life at the moment.
Eat, work, uni, sleep, repeat.

There is the occasional break for something different. Usually a trip to the cinema but last weekend was the 40th anniversary of the Bedford River Festival.
I wasn’t planning on going because I was working on the Sunday but we were up early on Saturday to take two of the kids to work and then just felt like doing something so me and Ian decided to spend the afternoon wandering around the music stages and enjoying the weather.

Murron actually ended up joining The Bear Bedford’s raft race team on Sunday and won!

Life is just plodding along with the occasional break at the moment, so not much to report.
Medical conditions are all in limbo waiting for appointments and treatments.
Ian is still not able to drive very far, so his treatment can’t come quick enough! But thankfully work are very understanding and he’s getting help from a colleague getting into work when needed and he can also do some work from home.

I can’t really report on much more right now.
Nothing is happening.
Adam has two films due. BlacKkKlansman is due for release on August 24th and looks like it’s going to be really good but The Man Who Killed Don Quixote is still in a kind of limbo because of legal issues. Even though it’s had quite a wide release across Europe, it still has no release date here in the UK.
He is Currently filming another Jim Jarmusch movie in New York and the third part of the current Star Wars trilogy is due to start filming any day now.

I continue to follow his career with interest.
It’s one of the few things that puts a smile on my face these days.

That said, I think I’m going to have an early night with an Adam film.
Just have to decide what one!!
Decisions, decisions.


What a roller coaster of a day and I haven’t really done anything!

I started the day on a high when I took my youngest daughter to start her new job at MacDonalds.
She was really scared but walked in with a smile on her face.

Then I did a shop to prepare for a BBQ tomorrow evening ready to watch England in the World Cup semi’s with my Dad.

We got some messages from Dharma saying she was OK.
She even posted on her break “On break now…been working eggs for 2&1/2 hours – let’s just say I’m a boss at eggs”.
All seemed to be going well.

Then I sat down at the computer, had one last run-through of my first presentation before submitting it to the Portal.
I had a little freak-out when I thought I’d messed up and then calmed down when my tutor got back in touch with me to re-assure me that I had submitted it and it had been received.
So that’s it. First Assignment finished. I now just have to actually present it next Monday to get my marks. DEEP BREATH…….

Then I received a call from Dharma who had finished work and wanted picking up.
This is where the Drama started.
Apparently the second half of her shift wasn’t as good as the first and she became completely overwhelmed. We had tears in the car as she said she ‘hated’ it and didn’t want to go back.
So, lots of re-assurance that this is actually very normal for a first timer on her first day at work and that she will actually get used to it but she can’t let it stop her.
Thankfully her sister is working with her on her next shift, so a friendly face will hopefully help and she has also said she will have a chat with the boss to see if there is anything that can be done to ease Dharma in a little more gently.
Right now she is in her bedroom. I know she’s probably still shedding tears and getting herself into a right panic. I just hope we can get her out of the door on Thurs!

Right, bit of a tidy up to do and then I’m actually going to watch the footy tonight to see who England WILL be playing in the final.

Doesn’t hurt to be a little optimistic!

An early shift tomorrow, a trip to MSK for Marji and then BBQ and England in the world cup semi’s.

It's coming home


So, the NHS is 70 years old.

Today I had a woman bring me to tears in Tescos.

She first confirmed I was who she thought I was before telling me that I had looked after her son on my ward a year ago. Apparently he is now 15 and still talks about how wonderful I was. She reiterated that 15 year olds don’t usually talk about their feelings but he always has good things to say about me when he remembers his stay on my ward.

I have to say that I got very emotional. It brought home why I am still working for the NHS. Comments like this are few and far between but they make all the hard work worth while

So, just a reminder, to all you wonderful nurses and CSWs out there. You may not hear it every day , but you are definitely appreciated and make all the difference to a patients stay in hospital.

Happy birthday NHS!!