WELL THIS IS THE STORY ALL ABOUT HOW….

It’s back to work today!!
It took me 12 days to test Covid negative.
The first week was really rough and the second week just felt like a cold.
It has left me with an irritation on my chest which makes me cough, particularly after some exersion, and I still feel like I have my head in a bucket of water, but the good news is that my ears have started ‘popping’, so hopefully that is beginning to clear up too.
It has also left me getting tired quite quickly. I may be back to work today but I think it will be some time before I’m back to 100%.

Anyway, the reason for the blog this morning.
I am enjoying my morning cup of milky coffee and I remembered that the Oscars was last night, so I have been checking out the results and the red carpet looks.
Turns out there was some real drama on stage last night when Will Smith took offence to a Chris Rock joke and he stormed on stage and slapped him!

Then he won an Oscar!

Going through the list of winners, I actually pretty happy.
It may not have won Best Picture or any of the big Acting awards but Dune came out a clear winner last night with 6 Oscars to it’s name!
The film was visually beautiful and this was awarded with Oscars for Best Cinematography, Best Visual Effects and Best Production Design.
It also won for Best Editing and Best Sound and one of my favourite movie music composers, Hans Zimmer won for Best Score.

But as wonderful as that is, these Oscars will always be remembered as the one where Will Smith assaulted Chris Rock live on TV.
It remains to be seen what damage he’s done to his career and reputation.


OK, MAYBE NOT

Wow, I decided to spend a bit of time in the garden this morning and make the most of the early sunshine.
It’s so nice out there that I decided to uncover the furniture and sweep the last of the winter leaves up so I have somewhere to sit.
After just 30 minutes, I feel like I’ve had the wind knocked out of my sails!
Because I’ve been shut in the living room and done nothing for almost 2 weeks, I didn’t realise how much COVID had taken out of me.

It begs the question, how bad would I have been if I hadn’t been vaccinated?
I dread to think.

At least I can now sit in the garden.
When I do go back to work, I’m not going to be on my feet and doing a crazy 12.5 hour shift.
I just need to pace myself and look after ‘ME’ for a change.

DAY 10

Day 10 and STILL testing positive.

I honestly didn’t expect to be testing positive at this stage.
I had a really rough first week.
I woke up on the Sunday with what felt like a cold and tested positive.
On Monday I tried working from home but by the end of the day I was feeling rubbish.
Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were a nightmare. I just couldn’t stop coughing and I got no sleep.
Ane I mean, NO sleep.
Then over Friday and Saturday, the cough really eased off and I just felt like I had a bit of a cold.
I have been waking in the mornings from that point on, thinking that I have got to be negative at some point soon.

It hasn’t happened yet.

Looking at Government guidance is worrying.
I had been hoping that I would test negative last weekend as Friday and Saturday were day 5 and 6 and my cough had really eased. If anything, the positive line on the test strip was getting darker.
But Government guidance then says that if I’m still testing positive on day 10, I can return to work after just one negative test.
I’m actually OK with this one and if I wake up tomorrow and I test negative I will be more than happy to get back into the office and get back into a routine.
However, it also states that if I’m still testing positive on the 14th day, I can STOP testing and return to work on the 15th day after a management risk assessment.

Seriously?!
Surely if I’m still testing positive, I’m testing positive for a reason?
I would feel extremely uncomfortable returning to a busy office and seeing vulnerable clients knowing that I was still testing positive!

Typhoid Mary springs to mind!!

Thankfully work also feels that coming to work while still testing positive is a bit reckless.
At least I am well enough to field a few calls from home and trawl through all my e-mails and try to catch up with all that has happened in the team before I physically get back into the office.

When will that be?
Any day now….. it’s got to be. I am improving daily.
I literally just feel like I have a mild cold. I have a bit of an irritation on my chest which means I still have a small cough.
My ears are still a bit blocked and I feel like I have my head in a bucket of water, but these are all minor irritations that I would normally get with any cold. They wouldn’t usually keep me off work.

Ironically, it is 2 years to the day since we went into our first lockdown!
I clearly remember going over the road to our local pub with my best mate Debbie on the eve of lockdown, to enjoy one last drink and face to face chat before they shut their doors indefinately.

I spent the last 2 years working in a hospital on the front line and I finally fall fowl of COVID while working in community and I wasn’t even at work when I caught it!!
I had been on annual leave for a week and it was my last day of annual leave when I tested positive!

Anyway, I’m looking forward to getting out and really enjoying that spring sunshine we’ve been having over the last week. Standing in the back garden just doesn’t hit the same spot.

ANY. DAY. NOW!!!

DAY 8

Day 8 of COVID and I’m still testing positive!

Not feeling too bad though. Still got a bit of a cough and just feel like I have cold.
Current guidance states….

If I’m still testing positive on day 10, I can return to work after just one negative test.
If I’m still testing positive on the 14th day, I can just stop testing and return to work on the 15th day after a management risk assessment.

WTF!
How uncomfortable would you be knowing you are still testing positive and being allowed back to work?!
Thankfully, my place of work see this as a bit reckless and I can at least do some work from home for a while.

Chances are, my tests will clear over the next few days, or at least, I hope they do because I’m going a bit stir crazy now!!

DAY 6

Day 6 of the COVID saga and I’m STILL positive!!

However, I have downgraded myself from a nasty flu to a rotten cold.
The cough still catches me out but at least I’m not coughing up a lung and I can actually sleep.
My poor voice.
If I talk too much my voice starts to disappear.
I tried to call someone from upstairs yesterday which proved a bit too much as no sound emerged.
I’m just feeling wiped out most of the time.

But it’s an improvement!

DAY 4

Day four of the COVID saga and I still feel poo!!
Still positive.
It has now gone to both of my ears and I feel like I have my head fully submerged in a bucket of water.
I hurt all over but my ribcage and back are the worst because of all the coughing.
With that said, the cough did actually ease off a little last night and I managed some sleep, which has helped.

Seriously hoping this means i’m over the hump!

SHOOT. ME. NOW.

Seriously! If I was a dog I would have been euthanized already.

I cannot remember the last time I ever felt this bad.
The cough is the killer.
I cannot lay flat without coughing up a lung.
I will just get comfortable in a chair before coughing again and having to move.
I haven’t slept properly since Sunday night.
I hurt all over and the cough hasn’t helped this either because my ribcage and back now feel like I’m getting stabbed every time I cough.
I can hear my breathing which is now crackly on exhaling.
My nose blocks when I lay flat and runs like a tap when I’m sitting. I’m now getting the subsequent red, sore nose.
My head feels like it’s exploding.
My eyes are puffy.
My ears are beginning to block and I feel like I have my head under water.
I haven’t exactly lost my sense of taste but nothing actually tastes right and I’ve lost my appetite.

I’ve had flu before, but this is something else!!
If this is something we are now going to have to live with, all I can say is, MAKE SURE YOU GET YOUR VACCINATIONS!!
This will more than likely become an annual vaccine like the existing flu vaccine.
Train your body to fight it before you get it.

I dread to think how poorly I would have become if I hadn’t been vaccinated.

I have been sleeping and existing in the living room since Sunday to stay away from the Hubby and so far, fingers crossed, he is still testing negative.

It’s definately COVID.
I’ve had three positive LFT’s since Sunday and I had to get a PCR to confirm for work.
Marjorie is now free after two clear LFT’s on day 5 and 6 and she’s actually feeling much better, so I’m hoping that on Friday this week I will be over the worst and getting my first negative LFT.

IT FINALLY HAPPENED

It’s only taken two years, but I have finally been hit by the COVID bug.
Obviously Marjorie couldn’t keep it to herself!!

I’ve spent the last two years working on the front line in a hospital ward environment and the last 3 months in a community environment, however, I did not aquire this from work! I was actually coming to the end of a week of annual leave and I firmly believe that Marjorie aquired it from someone who was being irresponsible because of the new Government guidelines where it states….

“You will not be ‘legally’ required to self-isolate if you test positive for COVID-19. Stay at home if you ‘can’ and avoid contact with other people”

I know that there will be people who have no symptoms and will be blissfully unaware that they are positive and we do have to get back to life. I am on about those that have symptoms, even mild cold like sysmptoms, that will only think of themselves and not the effect they could have on someone vulnerable and will go out and about regardless. No LFT, no precautions because the Government have given them a ‘legal’ get out to just carry on and infect others.
I find this totally unfair to people who are immunocompromised who could be unknowingly coming into contact with something that has the potential to make them extremely sick or even kill them. They must dread going out of the house.

I tested positive on Sunday morning and I am still testing positive today. Marjorie is now testing negative and as long as she tests negative again today, she can go back to work. You see, she’s been sensible and stayed at home and isolated herself as much as possible. She was actually feeling rubbish too though so she wouldn’t have gone into work anyway.

I am feeling rubbish too.
It wasnt too bad on sunday, it felt like a bit of a cold so I informed work and arranged to do some work from home.
However, as the day progressed, I felt worse and worse. By last night I was hurting all over and could barely move and a good cough had kicked in. So I had to concede and go off sick.

The cough kept me awake all night and has pretty much taken my voice away today and I still hurt all over. I thank my lucky stars that I am triple vaccinated. I hate to think how I would have felt or how sick I could have got if I wasn’t.

I have been sleeping on the sofa since the weekend so I could distance myself from Ian who has taken to walking around the house in a mask and keeping himself in the bedroom as much as possible. So far it seems to have worked and he is still negative and feeling ok.
If he catches this it’s going to be disastrous. The cough alone will flatten him but it will send his Psoriatic Arthritis into overdrive. Thankfully he’s triple vaccinated, so fingers crossed.

Dharma is also still negative and she too is walking around the house with a mask and staying in her bedroom as much as possible. Thankfully she passed her driving test a couple of weeks ago so at the moment, we have a lifeline to supplies. With that said, I did decide to get a Tesco delivery last night and topped up for the week so we shouldn’t need anything.

I will finish this off with a plea.
Please be sensible.
If you test positive, it is the responsible thing to do to isolate yourself until you are negative.

IT COULD BE A MOVIE

My exciting life, yet another update.
Seriously exciting enough to be a movie….. not!!

I’m coming to the end of my second week of annual leave in the last three weeks.
It didn’t all go to plan, not that I had much planned.

Initially I had planned the week to go to Huddersfield with Marjorie, who was thinking about doing a Masters degree. She said she had always felt like she missed out on the University experience by staying at home and doing her degree locally.
We had planned to travel up on the Tuesday, spend the day checking out the University, stay the night and then come home Weds, however, we had a good chat on Monday and came to the realisation that she was doing it all for the wrong reasons and it would probably be a really bad decision.

So, Tuesday was spent having a quick pre-spring tidy of the garden.
That literally meant sweeping up all the leaves that had built up during the winter storms.
A whole garden bin later and it’s not looking too bad. I just need to remember to put the green bin out on bin day now that they are collecting them again.

On Thursday I spent the day out with the hubby as a pre-birthday treat. We decided to do something we haven’t done in over two years and go and see a couple of movies with dinner in between.
The first film was ‘Marry Me’. Bit of a sappy romance but it was actually a lot of fun and we both really enjoyed it, which is just as well because the second film we went to see was ‘The Batman’ and it was really disappointing. Out of the two I was really looking forward to ‘The Batman’ but it was tedious and slow and just under three hours too long. Batman was pretty bloody useless to be honest. No cool gadgets, useless in a fight, nothing special about the car or the bike. The last 20 minutes showed some promise but overall it was time I am never getting back!
To cap it all off, dinner was a let down too.
As we were in MK, we decided to check out the Beefeater over the road from the cinema. We haven’t eaten there in years and it used to be a lovely place to go with good food, however, it was awful, tasteless and dry, we would have been better off going to Macdonalds. Would have been a hell of lot more tasty and enjoyable.

The rest of the week has been the usual housework kind of days.
I’ve had a couple of visits from an old friend as we catch up on the new series of Picard and I introduced him to ‘Upload’ which is hysterical and a new season of that started this week too.

The one thing we didn’t plan on though is COVID.
After two years of managing to avoid it, it finally found its way into the house when Marjorie tested positive on Thursday. She is now pretty much isolating herself in her bedroom and trying to avoid her dad who is immunocompromised. She’s triple vaccinated, she feels rough, but she’s ok. Fingers crossed it doesn’t go any further. It does mean that I will be doing daily tests for a while when I go back to work on Monday.

So, quiet weekend getting back on top of the washing, binging some TV. I may do a trip to Tesco tomorrow, we may even go out for Ian’s ‘actual’ birthday, but I’m not doing much else.

Yay.

GOING WELL

OK, so I’m almost 13 weeks into my new job and things are going well.
I have a good understanding of what the Eating Disorder Team does and my own team is just about complete and beginning to formulate how our supporting the ED team will look. We’ve even made a start with a few clients already. It’s all so new that things keep changing and ideas keep flying around, but it’s getting there.

I was on annual leave 2 weeks ago, I had a week at work last week and now I have another week of annual leave!!
I really should have planned that one better!

Anyway, it’s given me time to think about how things are going, and for the most part, I’m really happy. I’m more relaxed, less stressed, more laid back……. but….. I’m still feeling like a bit of a fraud!!
It’s silly really. I’ve been qualified now for 3 years and I’m bringing plenty of experience from my 14 years on a ward but I’m now being asked to ‘specialise’ and this is where I am losing a bit of confidence in myself.
I’m working with amazing people who are very experienced and I am very much still learning, so when I talk to clients and their carers, I’m always second guessing myself and wondering if I’m telling them the right thing and asking myself if it’s my place to be saying this. It still doesn’t feel natural.
Give me an adenotonsillectomy or a fractured limb and I’ll talk with confidence until the cows come home.
ED’s are a whole new ball game but I suppose this feeling will go with time, I just need to be patient.

So what have I done with my time off?
Not a lot really.
Got my nails and hair done.
Did some cleaning.
Got on top of the ironing.
Went to the Cinema to see ‘Uncharted’ (meh!)
Had dinner at the pub.
Sat on my behind and binged some TV.
Was thinking about tidying the garden but the last few weeks have been WAY too cold and wet.
This next week doesn’t look to be getting any better.

Anyway, it’s the hubster’s birthday this week so I see a day out at the cinema and meal on the cards.

My youngest, Dharma, passed her driving test on thursday. I now cannot keep her in. There has been no stopping her and I think her confidence is going to go from strength to strength. The only downside is that she needs to look at working a bit more to cover the running cost of the car!! I certainly can’t afford to run two cars.

The only other thing I have planned this week is a trip up to Huddersfield with Marjorie who is seriousy looking at doing a Masters degree in Media Studies. She wants to check out the Uni and it’s facilities. It will give us a chance to have a good chat on the way there too.

Right, time to crack open a bottle of wine and start the new season of Outlander!!