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Finally feeling human again, if just a little bit drained of energy.

Took Dharma for a follow up at the hospital about a wrist problem and she’s been given 3 months to think about the options that have been given to her.
The surgical option involves a big scar so the surgeon wanted her to go away and have a really good think about the consequences before making a decision.

I’m now just waiting for kids to get in from school.
It’s Thursay and I always let them get bought sandwiches and few treats for school packups on a Friday so there’s no point doing a Tesco run until they’ve got home.

So, I’ve been sitting here watching a movie on Youtube and, feeling a bit lost for anything to do, I did something I haven’t done in years.
I dug out my pencils and sketch book and had a go at a portrait.

It’s been a tentative start but I’m really surprising myself.
I may actually finish this one.


Could be the start of a renewed hobby!

I forgot to take my pain killers this morning and by the time I was walking into hospital with Dharma my knee was killing me.
There’s certainly no way I can power walk any more so losing weight over the next year has just become even harder.

Anyway, better remember to take my pain killers with me this weekend.
Me and Ian are having a couple of days away from reality.
A few movies, a few meals, a few drinks, meeting up with some old friends and a bit of shopping.
Would like a bit more spending money but hey ho, can’t have everything.



Day 2 of feeling like complete poo!
Not quite so dizzy today but aching all over.

Slept most of yesterday afternoon.
Watched The Martian with the hubby then promptly fell asleep and slept most of the evening and night too!

Got up this morning to moaning kids who left it to the last minute to find p.e. kits or can’t find shoes without holes in!!
Not what I was in the mood for the way I’m feeling!

Anyway, the house is now filled with the sounds of Ian packing up stuff he’s sold on Ebay and Mum ironing in the kitchen and the bloody washing machine has just gone onto spin!!
My poor head.

Anyway, thankfully Ian is off today.
He’d booked the day off originally because I was working and Marjorie needed to get to a college interview this afternoon.
Dharma has a follow up with the Dietician at the hospital that Mum is going to take her to and originally I would have met them from work for half an hour but that won’t be happening now because I am going to be dying on the sofa.
She’ll have to talk to the Dietician on her own.

On the positive side, me and Ian have decided that we could both probably do with a little break and as he has some points saved after some business trips, we are using them on a hotel in Central Milton Keynes for a night on Saturday.
So, something to look forward to. A little shopping with my unspent Xmas pot from Mum and Dad, a few movies, a couple of meals utilising our Wagamamas card we got for Xmas from Ian’s Dad and step mum and basically not having to worry about having a drink before driving home.

I am now drinking my second cup of milky coffee and I have just checked in on Box Office Mojo.
I am pleased to announce that Star Wars: The Force Awakens has broken the 2 billion dollar barrier!!
Unbelievable. Especially when you consider that it was reached in just 51 days!!
It is still sitting in third place which is just 178 million behind Titanic and 780 million behind Avatar BUT you also have to consider that Titanic and Avatar have both had multiple releases and 19 years and 7 years respectively to reach those targets.
Star Wars did it in 51 days!!!!

That’s cheered me up a little.



That’s how I feel right now.
Nauseous, clammy and really dizzy!!
Looks like I’ve finally caved into the bug that’s been working it’s way through the family over the last few weeks.

And after such a good day yesterday!!
Don’t groan but we went to see Star Wars…… again!
Only this time we did the IMAX 3D experience!
All I can say is… OMG!!!
It’s the first time we’ve seen any film in IMAX and I can honestly say…

It was EPIC.
I felt like I was watching it for the first time again and literally had goose bumps the whole way through!

We also went to see Pride and Prejudice and Zombies which initially I wasn’t too keen on seeing but I’m so glad I did.
It was really amusing. I loved the fact that they literally stuck to the original story but just added a zombie twist and they played it all so seriously!
It was hilarious.

Anyway, I am going to snuggle up in bed now with a few movies.
Somehow I don’t think I will make it to the end of any of them as I feel a serious snooze approaching.


After the last couple of weeks with bugs in the family leading to one hospital stay and countless trips to GP, hospital and phlebotomy clinics, I decided that on my days off, today and tomorrow, I was going to chill and do as little as possible!!

My Mum had worked her wonders on the house for me yesterday so there was very little to do beside a quick trip to the shops for some veggies for tea.
As I sat at the computer this morning, the house was blissfully silent and all I wanted to do was mess around on Youtube and Tumblr and maybe listen to some music, but then…….
Mum arrived!!

Don’t get me wrong, I love my Mum and I love the fact she helps me keep my house under control so that I ‘can’ actually enjoy my days off but my Mum has a tendency to natter while she’s doing stuff.

How can I tell my Mum that occasionally, I just want to sit at my computer and maybe listen to some music without her popping her head into the room and talking every five minutes!!
So, I got myself dressed and helped her.

Anyway, the afternoon was spent blissfully watching movies and taking a much needed nap.
Then I got a phone call.
I had been expecting it all afternoon.
I had my hips and my right knee x-ray’d a couple of weeks ago and I was now waiting for a call from the GP to discuss the results.
To be honest, what he told me came as no surprise.
I have the early signs of arthritis in both the hips and the knee.
This just confirmed my suspicions.

In my head I still feel like I did 20 years ago.
I’m still passionate about my movies and TV shows and actors.
But my body is now beginning to fail me and I’m feeling old.

I’ve already noticed a slow down in my daily routine due to the pain.
Now I’ve got to make some big changes to my lifestyle to lose some serious weight and hopefully slow down the progress of the arthritis.



So, I went to the cinema again today.

This is the first chance my husband has had to go to the cinema this year so far and when I asked him what he wanted to see, he smirked and said… Star Wars?

Like I was really going to argue with him!!

As I walked into the cinema, it occurred to me that there are quite a few movies currently showing that I want to see.
Some of them Oscar nominated.
The Revenant, Room, The Big Short, Creed, Dirty Grandpa…… even The Danish Girl before it disappears!

I have been to the cinema a grand total of 8 times since Dec 18th and all of them were for Star Wars.
That really has to be it.
Time to try something new.

I can’t confirm anything yet but it looks like we may be getting an April Bluray release!
That’s pretty damned quick!
I thinks I can give Star Wars a rest for a while.

Anyway, sitting here on my computer I have just discovered a new photo from another one of my obsessions.
Joel Kinnaman likes to keep himself to himself but with the release of Suicide Squad looming, I’m expecting to see more of him on multi media platforms.

Today I came across this candid snap of him with his Tattoo artist girlfriend, Cleo Wattenstrom, and cinematographer Michel Migles.


I did a bit of a double take when I realised he’s had some new ink work done… surprise surprise!!
He already had a beautiful piece of work on his left arm but he’s added to it with a stunning shoulder piece.
It’s very new because it certainly wasn’t there during filming for Suicide Squad!


To finish the day off, the bugs seem to be leaving the house.
Murron is definately back to her old self and is off out with her friends.
Dharma has had a much better day today. She seems to have gotten over the worst of whatever was ailing her and apart from developing a cold, she’s pretty much back to her bubbly self.
I’m not stressing about her any more.

End of January.
End of a shitty month all round.
Hopefully things can only get better for the rest of the year.


To all my Tumblr colleagues.
I have used a few Gifs in this blog.
They are Gifs that I have simply collected to look at on my own computer occasionally, however, some of them were irrisistable for this blog.
Unfortuantely I can’t remember who’s they are and would love to give credit where credit is due. If you are the original creator or know who they are, let me know and I will update my post accordingly.

This is a blog I’ve been meaning to write for over 4 months now.
I had the title and saved it and it’s been sitting there, waiting for the right time.
I think that now is that time.

I kind of had a start back on January 2nd with a blog entitled “WHERE DID IT ALL START”

That blog basically covered when I started obsessing and analysed the build up over the years.

It’s no secret that movies have always been a bit of an obsession of mine.
But what people probably don’t really know about me is that that obsession has recently taken a sinister turn.
God that makes it sound really weird!! Maybe sinister is the wrong word.

An ‘odd’ turn may be more appropriate.

Interest in films and various actors has always been a hobby of mine but back in 2012, it took an unnerving turn into obsession.
To this day, I couldn’t tell you what the trigger was or in fact, still is, because it’s happened four times now.

All I remember is, going to see a film that my husband wanted to see, about a character that my husband grew up reading about in comics.
Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to see the film but Judge Dredd was never my thing as a kid.
Dredd 3D was an immense film that had an immense cockup with it’s marketing.
They limited it to exclusively 3D showings and basically cut out half of it’s market.
Not everyone wants to see a film in 3D, not everyone can afford the 3D supplement and some people actually struggle to see 3D.
The film was a critical success. Dredd fans loved it. The reviews came in thick and fast but unfortunately it bombed at the box office. Simply because of the lack of 2D showings and the abysmal marketing.

I came out of that film with the urge to find out more about it’s lead, Karl Urban.
For some reason I couldn’t get him out of my head.
That urge quickly turned into obsession.
I had already seen Karl in a few movies. Star Trek and Lord of the Rings but for some reason it wasn’t until I saw him as Dredd that my interest piqued.

571Eomer 2Dredd visor flames

For some reason, that leather outfit and helmet really ‘did it’ for me.

This is when I got thrown into a world I really new nothing about.
It still baffles me sometimes.
While trawling the internet I suddenly realised that I wasn’t alone in my obsessing.
In fact, what I was doing was actually quite tame compared to some of the things I was witnessing on my internet travels.
It is during this time that I discovered ‘Tumblr’


My only issue with this site is that I feel like a Mum keeping an eye on my unruly teenager!
This site is predominantly for the younger peeps in life.
I tend to watch what’s going on rather than interact directly.
My blog is linked to the site so that every time I blog, it shows up on my dashboard on Tumblr.
This site is all I need to feed my obsession.
The photos, the animated Gifs, the incredible artwork created by the other very talented members of Tumblr, the theories about favourite movie characters, youtube hits on things I would never have found on my own.
Once I start on Tumblr it’s very difficult to stop!

So, four obsessions later, I’m still Tumbling.
Four obsessions who are totally different.

4 obsessions

In my earlier post in January I stated that “My computer currently has folders of pictures that I can look at and print at my hearts content. Back in my teens, this would have been known as my bedroom wall.”

I’m not kidding.
My bedroom walls were a scrap book of images.
They covered the walls from floor to ceiling like wallpaper and they had been stuck on with wallpaper paste. When a new picture was discovered it would simply be plastered over an old picture.

I’d like to think that I’m a little more restrained these days but then I look at my living room and my desk space and I think that restrained is the wrong word!!
Controlled or deliberate may be a better use of words, whatever, I do know that my Mum hates it!!
The poster frames are great. It means that we can change the look and feel of a room by simply changing the posters occasionally.

When I look at my desk space I see shadows of my former bedroom.
The wall space is slowly getting covered and little nic nacs of memorabilia are creeping in.


Desk 2

That computer is holding hundreds of photos!
The photos that would have originally been on my bedroom walls are now filed away and occasionally backed up on my Flikr account.
To date there are 944 of Karl Urban, 678 of Joel Kinnaman, a more restrained 190 of Jake Gyllenhaal and a mere 82 of Adam Driver but as the last two are fairly new obsessions, I’m sure those numbers will go up quickly.

It’s strange, those pictures are there simply for me to have a browse through occasionally and every now and again I’ll pull one for a blog post.
Even when they are backed up to Flikr they are in private files that only I can look at.
All of my other photos are public.

I’m seriously considering creating a hardcopy book that I can just keep adding to occasionally but that’s time and money I just don’t have at the moment.

So, what starts the obsessing?

The films that kicked off my obsessions, in order are…….
Dredd 3D, Robocop, Southpaw and Star Wars: The Force Awakens.

Let’s take a look at the characters the obsessions were playing…….

4 obsessions 2

What’s the first thing you notice?
With the exception of Jake Gyllenhaal, they are dressed in black (OK Jake is in black) with their faces covered.
They are unrecognisable as the actors playing them.
That said, Jake had transformed himself to virtually unrecognisable to play Billy Hope in Southpaw.

The current obsession has the potential to be the biggest obsession yet!
With the 2nd in the new Star Wars Trilogy set to hit the big screen in 2017 and the 3rd installment in 2019, my obsession with Adam Driver and espcially Kylo Ren is going to go into overdrive.

In ‘The Force Awakens’, from the moment he revealed himself to Rey and realised he could be equalled or even outmatched….

Kylo afraid

through all of his tantrums…..

Kylo temper storm troopers

to the events on the bridge with Han……

Kylo Han


When he utters the words ‘I’m being torn apart’ and ‘I want to be free of this pain’ my heart ached for him!! Literally ached!

I am hoping we get one hell of a redemption arc in the next two movies because if they kill him off in the next one I think I’ll cry!!

So, what happens when the obsession strikes?

A rabbid hunt for anything the actor has done in the past is the first thing.
Movies and TV shows you wouldn’t have even thought about watching or even knew existed are now something you ‘have’ to watch.
Some of it is good, some of it is great but inevitably there are some real duds.
“Cough….Accidental Hero… cough cough…..sorry Jake!!”
Followed by keeping an eye on what they are currently doing or planning to do.
Tumbling for new images on a daily basis.
Checking in on IMDB to see if anything has been added to their filmography.

It’s what keeps me happy and constantly entertained.
I love being obsessed and it most certainly is an art form that not many people understand!

I thank my lucky stars that my husband understands.
He’s happy that he can drool over some of his favourite actresses without complaint from me, so I think we’re even.


Murron was finally discharged today.
She was a lot brighter and happier when I went to see her.

I just have to get her to take it easy for the rest of the week now.
She has to go back for a blood test and a follow up on Thursday but hopefully that’s the end of this little saga.

Just chilling now before bed and then back to the hospital for work!!
I don’t know why I just don’t rent a room in the place.


So, Murron is still in hospital.
She was still spiking a temperature of 39.8 this afternoon and that’s nearly 2 days after starting IV antibiotics.
She’s still in quite a bit of pain but has had a scan that confirms there are no stones, which is good news.

Anyway, the last couple of days have been a little difficult to say the least.
Not only because Murron is in hospital but because she is now on an adult ward!
Cutting the last of the apron strings has been a bit tough because Murron is not very forthcoming in asking questions and doesn’t really understand that she needs to take control of her own hospital care now.
I am limited to when I can visit and I worry that she will not be very pro-active when talking to Doctors and nurses.

She had to have a second canula today after the first one failed quite dramatically leaving her with a lovely swelling on her arm.
So, sitting with her this evening she was chatting away to friends and invited some to come and see her.
Feeling like spare parts, me and her Dad decided to call it an evening and leave her to her friends.
Somehow, it doesn’t seem right!!
I know she’s 18 but she’s still my baby.
I’m finding that letting her get on with it is harder than I expected it to be.

On the plus side….. at least we can catch that showing of Star Wars we missed on Wednesday!!


So, a quick update on the last post.

A+E on Weds evening was heaving!
That said, it was obvious to everyone in the waiting room and most were extremely patient.
Murron was triaged, seen by a Doctor and unfortunately ended up being admitted onto the Acute Assessment Unit for the night for IV antibiotics and painkillers.
Considering how slammed they were, I don’t think 4.5 hours was bad going!

Anyway, Murron was made as comfortable as possible for the night and I made my way home to try and get some sleep.

The next morning and with Murron spiking temps of nearly 40, it was decided that she should be admitted to a ward to continue with her IV’s.
At this point they couldn’t rule out an obstruction or stones.
And that is all that happened yesterday. I must admit, I’m a little concerned that no scan has been done yet?

I have spoken to her this morning and she is still spiking temps and still has pain, although the pain is not quite as bad but that could be down to an additional pain killer they have given her.
We are now waiting to hear from Doctors this morning to see how we are going to proceed.
To be honest, I’m half expecting her to be in for another night the way things are going.

But let’s cross that bridge if we get to it.


So today I had an appointment with my Doctor primarily about my knee.
After also explaining about my achey hips waking me up in the middle of the night and the fact that the joints in my fingers are getting a bit achey, I came away with everything I was expecting.

1 – An order for an x-ray of my right knee and both hips to confirm what both the Doctor and myself are suspecting…… arthritis!!

2 – Advice to lose some weight.

Number two is something I have known I should be tackling for some years now but as with everything else, it’s always been a case of “I’ll start tomorrow”!
Well, I’m out of time now and if I still want to be walking and working for the next 10 years, I’d better get cracking!

So there’s the bad part of the day.

The good part is that Ian suggested a trip to the cinema this evening.
As he now works 9-5 he’ll be home in plenty of time to catch an evening showing.
We also want to spend the day out in MK on Saturday watching a couple of movies.
So I jokingly suggested that we see two ‘new’ movies on Saturday but tonight we could maybe go see Star Wars again!
I nearly choked when he said yes!!!!

Dancing Darth

So there’s the good part of my day.

Can’t wait to see this….

Kylo entrance

and this…..

Kylo temper storm troopers

and ultimately this…..

Kylo Han


For the 7th and absolutely the last time!!!
Until the Bluray release of course.