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Mum of three.
X graphic designer turned mum. When the need to go back out to work arrived, I became a Clinical Support Worker completely by accident. I was a support worker for 9 years and was actually awarded Clinical Support Worker of the Year 2011 at my trust.
I have just completed a 2 year University course as a Trainee Nursing Associate and now I am one of the countries first registered Nurse Associates. I am also a Paediatric based Nurse Associate which makes me quite rare. I have been married for 25 years.


Ok, 16 months.
16 months to lose some weight and get into shape.
That’s about 12 months more than I gave myself before I went out to Italy in 2017 so I should be able to achieve it!
The only issue this time is my knee which has slowly got worse and worse over the last year.
With no Dr’s doing face to face consultations and no elective surgeries being performed which will cause a HUGE backlog, there was just no point in seeing anyone about a problem that was not life threatening.
So, I just keep ticking along on pain killers. It’s not horrendous. I am still walking. It’s just becoming more and more noticeable and annoying and I don’t exactly walk anymore, l limp or hobble.

Anyway, the last couple of weeks have seen the start of my build up of interest in the Olympics!
I had annual leave last year to be able to sit and watch it all to my hearts content, but then COVID got the event cancelled.
I have the same annual leave booked for this year, and so far it’s full steam ahead.

Unfortunately, over the last year, one of my favourite Gymnasts has had to retire due to an ongoing injury that he just can’t shake. I blogged about it in January this year and if you want, you can read it HERE.
He injured his neck a couple of years ago and had to have some major surgery and since then he just hasn’t been able to reach full fitness and has never quite recovered.
So, he’s gone onto the next step in his career and is opening a couple of Gyms where his exuberant and inspirational attitude towards gymnastics will hopefully produce a few world class gymnasts in the future.
It won’t stop me from following the GB boys in Tokyo though!
The final announcement of who has qualified for the team is expected over the next few weeks but it is looking pretty good for Max Whitlock. He should be defending his Olympic Gold title but it will probably be his last Olympics. It would be nice to see him go out with a bang!

Rounding Off: Max Whitlock dazzles in first competition in 16 months

The other event I like to watch is the Diving. Specifically the 10m individual and 10m synchro.
Competition events in preparation for the Olympics have been taking place over the last few weeks and my boys, Tom Daley and Matty Lee walked away with the gold medal for the 10m synchro and Tom walked away with the gold for 10m individual at the FINA Diving World Cup in Tokyo between the 1st and the 6th May.

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They both continue to do well at the European Championships in Budapest with the pair again walking away with the gold for 10m synchro yesterday. Tom is going for another gold in the 10m individual later today.

Gold medallists Great Britain's Matthew Lee (L) and Great Britain's Thomas Daley pose on the podium after the Men's Synchronised 10m Platform Diving event

They are both shaping up nicely for the Olympics later this year!

Anyway, back to today. I’m on day three of three days off and I was ‘hoping’ to get the grass cut in the front and back gardens but it’s been raining a lot the past few days and is just too wet to do anything with.
It’s really frustrating because my back garden is looking really good. The grass is just getting too long and messing it up.
The front garden is another story. I haven’t done any work in it yet this year so it’s beginning to look a bit like a jungle.
I want to do something with it before it gets too out of control!!
Oh well, it’s going to have a to wait a few days.
So today, I will be watching a couple of movies instead, so there is an upside.



After my little scare on Thursday, I have spent a few days chilling and letting the Ramipril take effect.
It seems to have done it’s job as my BP is now a blisteringly perfect 120/83!!
It will be interesting to see what it is after the next two days of 12.5 hour shifts!

Anyway, I have also spent the weekend getting rid of (i.e eating!) all of the rubbish in the house.
So, no more crisps and snacks and absolutely no more milky coffee.
Alcohol consumption……. will now be reduced. I’m f####d if I’m giving that up completely right before the pubs and restaurants open up again!

I may not get into those tops at the back of my wardrobe this summer, but I’ll give it a good go.

So, if any of my work colleagues see me making a milky coffee, sneaking a chocolate, or heading to the canteen for a sausage roll and a packet of crisps, you have permission to slap me!


Yesterday was a wake up call.

When I went to bed I had a bit of pain between my shoulder blades that I put down to tension and being tired. It wasn’t unusual and I didn’t worry.

I had set my alarm for 05:30 as I usually do when I have to get up for work, however, I was woken up at 04:30 by a very uncomfortable central chest pain.
It didn’t matter how I positioned myself, it just wouldn’t ease off and took a good 45 minutes to dissipate.

I got up and got ready for work but while I was drinking my morning coffee I felt a bit of fluttering in my chest and this got me a little worried. Worried enough to do the NHS 111 symptom check which then told me I should be seen in A+E.

I arrived in A+E just before 7am and was triaged pretty quickly.
After observations, ECG, Chest X-ray and bloods the possibility of a heart attack or aortic aneurysm had been ruled out but I discovered I was hypertensive!

Thinking back, I have been having the odd dizzy spell as I put my head on my pillow at night for the last couple of weeks, so I’m thinking this has been going on for a little while.

Anyway, I have been started on Ramipril for the hypertension and I have to go back for a follow up next week to see if it has had any effect or the dose needs changing.

So! Time to stop dancing around the fact that I really need to lose some weight and think about my fitness.
Shit…. I hate getting old.


So, today did not go quite as expected!

I had planned to have a complete day off today.
Doing on/off/on/off/on shifts in a week, can take it out of you a little bit.
I hadn’t slept very well the previous night either, so I was planning to just put my feet up and watch a few movies.


I received a phone call from my Dad just before 10am to say that Mum hadn’t been too well over night.
Mum and Dad were supposed to be attending the funeral of an old friend and neighbour, Terry, and Mum wasn’t feeling up to it, so Dad asked if I would like to go with him instead.

I couldn’t say no.
With current COVID restrictions, I didn’t want to leave a space that could have been filled by someone else.
I’ve also known Terry for most of my life. His daughter, Kirsty, was born the same year as my brother and we literally grew up together. I actually felt quite honoured to be part of it.

Me and my Dad were the only ‘friends’ with everyone else being related to Terry in some way.
We initially felt a little bit out of place but that soon changed at the wake.
As we sat at a table with a few other family members, with my Dad being the only gentleman in the group, the conversations and stories started to flow with the alcohol and we ended up having quite a laugh!!

Plans have been made to meet up with Kirsty occasionally in our local when they can open up again and what should have been a quite sombre day, ended up being quite reflective and uplifting.
An old, long neglected friendship may have just had a bit of a re-boot.


It’s heart breaking to see the situation in India at the moment.
Record breaking COVID 19 deaths.
People begging for oxygen because hospitals are running out.
I fully get why other countries are doing what they can to help.


What makes my blood boil is the fact that there has been no lockdowns, the government insists on pushing ahead with elections, religious festivals have been allowed to go ahead, there has been no consideration to the Pandemic in any way shape or form.
What makes my blood boil even more is the total disregard and lack of priority by the Indian Government for the welfare of their people.
This country has Nuclear Warships and a space programme!! Where is the funding for their people to help out in a crisis? Why are they not postponing elections and enforcing lockdowns to try and get COVID under some control?

The whole Government should be held to account by the rest of the world….. once the rest of the world has helped to dig them out of their hole!!


I know, I know…. where has my usual blogging about Oscars buzz been this year?

Quite frankly, I haven’t been buzzed by it this year and can honestly say that I’ve only actually seen one of the nominated movies. As a consequence, I had no thoughts on who or what should win.

COVID has meant that it’s been a very lean year for cinema going and, since March 24th 2020 until April 27th 2021, I have only seen one movie in the cinema.
Seeing movies on a streaming service is just not the same, so the last year has mainly consisted of old films and looking forward to the plethora of films due in the cinema, and in some cases, over due, later this year.

The Oscars this year was also hit with indifference as the number of people who watched the ceremony dropped a staggering 58% to less than 10 million.

The ceremony itself took place in a total of 20 locations to allow for social distancing and reduce travelling amongst the nominees and the audience capacity was limited to 170 people, with attendees being rotated in and out throughout the show. As a whole, the show received mainly negative reviews.

Even with these restrictions, stars still made a splash on the red carpet.

For the most part, the women’s dresses were stunning and I think Amanda Seyfried in her stunning red Armani won the night for me.

But there were also some flops in my opinion. I’m sorry, don’t judge me but what was Laura Dern thinking and Viola Davis looks like a paper lantern !!

Even the men were stepping up a gear this year.

But unfortunately there is always a dud amongst the men too, and the Oscars musical director, Questlove, showed just how to fuck up a stylish black suit that should have been impossible to fuck up!

Anyway, that’s it for this year!
I’ll eventually get around to watching some of the nominees/winners and ‘hopefully’ I’ll be a little more enthusiastic next year.
At least there should be some Adam Driver movies to gush about next year. Two haven’t been release yet and there is already talk about Oscar nominations. Only time will tell.


I know it’s been a shit past year and people are really looking forward to relaxation of the Covid rules, I’ve already ventured out to a lovely evening at a pub and I’m looking forward to many more over the summer, but I’m asking you all not to jump the gun!

I keep seeing people showing that they have had their second vaccine which is BRILLIANT!!
I know that they are having a bit of a giggle when they joke about being able to ‘do whatever they want now right?!’, but, the fact of the matter is, that the vaccine is protecting you and helping to protect vulnerable people and people who can’t be vaccinated and it’s helping us get back to some kind of normality, but you STILL need to be careful. You can still carry it and pass it on without realising.

COVID is not going anywhere soon. We’re just getting it under control, which means you will STILL need to wash your hands more often, WEAR you masks in public spaces (that means over you nose too!), social distance as much as possible and follow all the guidelines when you go out to pubs and restaurants.

Please DO NOT assume that because the restrictions are being lifted we can go back to how it was before.
We are going to need to wear our masks for at least another year or two!!

If you’re an anti-vaxxer. Just don’t even try to argue your point with me.
I totally understand that there are people who CAN’T be vaccinated due to health conditions or allergies and it’s these people who are being protected by EVERYONE else getting the vaccine!!
If you simply don’t agree with it or have some stupid idea that ‘it’s all a conspiracy’ to get us chipped, then you can fuck right off!! You are quite simply a moron and ‘hey’ survival of the fittest….and smartest. You will get what’s coming to you.


It’s been a bit of a mixed week.

The garden has been coming along nicely.
I got the new troughs planted and dug out some old pots to freshen up with new shrubs.
I’ve tried to get shrubs that will give all year round greenery but give plenty of flower colour in the summer to try and attract the bees and butterflies.
Popped some new lights up and now we just need some good weather to be able to enjoy it.

Had my old friend Mick round for another catch up on Weds. It’s nice to get back to our weekly chats, even if it is in the garden for now. The patio area is quite sheltered and with the early morning sun, it gets quite warm.
It’s just not good for the diet. With the bakers just over the road, amazing fresh doughnuts and giant iced finger buns have become a bit of a tradition!!

Work hasn’t been too bad recently.
We are now seeing the return of our elective surgeries and the ward hasn’t been crazy busy.
However, this week I was supposed to work Tues, Thurs and Fri.
Tues went without a hitch and my day off on Weds was nice and chillaxing, however, when I woke up on Thurs I had developed a streaming cold!
My nose felt like someone had turned a tap on and I was sneezing all day which made my eyes watery and puffy.
Work was not great that day. The ward itself was OK, I just felt like poo and I looked like it too. Continuously having to blow my nose made it very sore and I looked like Rudolph the Reindeer. I was actually quite thankful for the mask!!
However, sneezing into that mask was not pretty!
I ended up leaving the ward a couple of hours early and had to say that I wouldn’t be in on Friday.

Explain to me just HOW…. you can spend all day at work in a mask, go nowhere on your day off and STILL catch a cold?

Thursday wasn’t a total loss though as my daughter had her 20 week scan to confirm that the pregnancy was progressing well and that the baby was looking healthy. She also found out that she is expecting a boy!
I know that she and Jordan were hoping for a girl because Jordan already has two little boys, but they are both happy and now they can really start to plan things.
They have said that this will be the only baby in their relationship…… but…… I think the thought of adding a little girl into the mix might persuade them to have another go at some point. We’ll see.

So, to today.
The nose has just about stopped running. It’s not looking as red as it did on Thurs but it’s now so dry and crispy around the edges it’s going to start peeling!! Lovely!
I’m going out to the pub for the first time in Months tomorrow evening and I’m going to look ravishing…. NOT!

Anyway, the BIG news for the day is that in just under 2 hours time, I will be getting my hair cut!!
I’ve been desperate for a cut for at least the last 6 weeks!
It’s longer at the end of this lockdown than it was the first one!

Urgh! Please excuse the miserable face. My eyes are still really puffy and I’m just feeling blurgh…….. and old TBH!
Hopefully a haircut and a bit of sun will change that.

Anyway, let’s get to the end of this blog.
What haven’t I mentioned yet?…………. Oh yes, Adam!
Photos have continued to stream out of Italy as Adam and Lady Gaga continue to film for ‘House of Gucci’
It’s been a busy week and the scene that every Adam Driver fan has been dreading was filmed this week too.
The assassination of Maurizio Gucci was filmed and appeared to be quite a tough day for Adam. He is very much a method actor and likes to get into character and stay in character while on set.

Anyway, here are a selection of photos from this week and quite frankly, some of them should be illegal because Adam looks AMAZING!

Right! The sun is shining. I have a few chores to do and I need to shake off the last of this cold.
Have a fabulous weekend whatever you’re doing.


Three days off and plenty of time to relax.

I started a little DIY project yesterday and made a planter trough for the patio and had a visit from a friend I haven’t seen in months.

Today I had a busy morning with a visit from a company cleaning our gutters and fixing our facia that got damaged in recent high winds, followed by a delivery of some more garden chairs and a few bags of compost for the trough. I managed to get the trough filled and ready for planting and the grass cut before the rain started.

Patio coming along nicely

The patio is really beginning to take shape. It just needs some plants. The sweetpeas are just sprouting and not ready for the trough yet but I may take a trip to the local farm shop tomorrow to see if they have some bedding plants to start with….. if it’s not raining!

So now it’s time to put the feet up and I’m channel hopping. I have settled on a film that I absolutely love and can never click past.

We Bought a Zoo is based on a true story and although it is set in the US and stars Matt Damon and Scarlett Johansson, the real Zoo is actually here in the UK! It’s a lovely film and a favourite ‘go to’ when I’m just chillaxing.

What do I watch later though? I don’t really want to get hooked on a series and there’s not much in the way of new movies at the moment. I’ve watched Godzilla vs Kong, Cherry, WW1984 and Chaos Walking but I really begrudge paying 10 – 15 pounds for a 2 day rental when we already pay for Netflix and Prime.

Ah well, not long now and the Cinemas will be open again. Can’t wait!!