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mumofthreedevils

Mum of three.
X graphic designer turned mum. When the need to go back out to work arrived, I became a Clinical Support Worker completely by accident. I was a support worker for 9 years and was actually awarded Clinical Support Worker of the Year 2011 at my trust.
I have just completed a 2 year University course as a Trainee Nursing Associate and now I am one of the countries first registered Nurse Associates. I am also a Paediatric based Nurse Associate which makes me quite rare. I have been married for 25 years.

30 DAY SONG CHALLENGE

Over the last month I have been doing the 30 day song challenge.
I have been doing it on Facebook and I thought I’d do a roundup of all 30 songs here.
I honestly can’t believe how quickly the last 30 days has gone!!

DAY 1 – A song you like with a colour in the title.

I chose ‘Purple Haze’ by Jimmy Hendrix.
A song I have always liked that has recently been revived for me because of new and very talented friends.

DAY 2 – A song you like with a number in the title.

I found this one completely by accident when watching Domhnall Gleeson in his ‘Immaturity for Charity’ videos he made back in 2014.
The video stars Domhnall and his brother Brian and the song was sold for the charity.

DAY 3 – A song that reminds you of summertime

I chose ‘Fun, Fun, Fun by Pharrell Williams.
This is just one of those care free happy songs that is just perfect on a warm sunny day when you have nothing to do except enjoy it.

DAY 4 – A song that reminds you of someone you’d rather forget.

I chose – Hail to the Chief
OK, so I didn’t take this one too seriously!!
Considering the state of the world at the moment, the one person on the planet I would love to see disappear is Donald fucking Trump! and I live in a country run by Boris bloody Johnson!!
Idiot, dickhead, dangerous, clueless, moron, brain dead, orange, selfish, caveman, tosser, fool, laughing stock, incompetent. What more do I need to say.

DAY 5 – A song that needs to be played loud.

I chose ‘Mr Brightside’ by The killers
A song that never fails to get people singing at parties and has to be loud!

DAY 6 – A song that makes you want to dance.

I chose ‘Cut to the Feeling’ by Carly Rae Jepson.
After discovering Mark Kanemura dancing to this on Instagram, his enthusiasm for the song was infectious and now I just can’t resist it.

DAY 7 – A song to drive to.

I chose ‘Giant’ by Rag’n’Bone Man as I often find myself driving home from work to it.

DAY 8 – A song about drugs and alcohol.

I chose ‘High Enough’ by K-Flay
My daughter introduced me to this one and I was lucky enough to hear her sing it live when she supported Imagine Dragons, a concert I went to with her Dad. My Daughter still hasn’t forgiven me!!

DAY 9 – A song that makes you happy.

I chose ‘What Makes You Beautiful’ by One Direction.
My guilty pleasure and one that drives the kids nuts which makes me love it even more!!

DAY 10 – A song that makes you sad.

I chose ‘Visions of Gideon’ by Sufjan Stevens.
A song written for one of my favourite films, ‘Call me by Your name’ and used at the very end of the film where Elio is reminiscing and remembering Oliver. Song starts to play at 1:20

DAY 11 – A song you never get tired of.

I chose ‘Take Me to Church’ by Hozier
An amazing song and one that introduced me to Hozier. I have a very clear memory of waking up at about 2am after falling asleep on the sofa. There was a chat show re-run on and Hozier was the musical guest, singing this song at the end. I woke up to his stunning voice and performance and have loved him ever since!

DAY 12 – A song from your preteen years.

I chose ‘My Sharona’ by The Knack
I don’t know why. It’s just one of those songs that sticks in your head and I’ve always liked it.

DAY 13 – A song you like from the 70’s

I chose ‘Cars’ by Gary Numan
A song that isn’t played nearly enough and I can’t believe it’s from the 70’s!!!… but only just.

DAY 14 – A song you’d love to be played at your wedding.

I chose ‘Smoke Gets in Your Eyes’ by The Platters.
This song was ACTUALLY played at my wedding.
A song that me and the hubby both liked from a film we saw together before we got married.

DAY 15 – A song you like that’s a cover by another artist.

I chose ‘Lay Me Down’ by Hozier
This song amazes me. Originally a really sad song by Sam Smith, BUT in the hands of Hozier, it has a completely different feel and becomes a quite joyful and happy song. One song, two takes, same words, same tune, two totally different meanings!

DAY 16 – A song that’s a classic favourite.

I chose ‘Ain’t That a Kick in the Head’ by Dean Martin.
Can’t get any more classic than that!

DAY 17 – A song you’d sing a duet with someone on Karaoke.

Ok, ‘IF’ I could sing, it would be ‘The Bones’ by Maren Morris Ft Hozier.
A very recent song and absolutely stunning.

DAY 18 – A song from the year you were born.

I chose ‘Bad Moon Rising’ by Creedance Clearwater Revival.
1969 was a good year.

DAY 19 – A song that makes you think about life.

I chose ‘Being Alive’ by Steven Sondhiem, sung by Adam Driver.
This was a recent discovery for me as it was belted out by Adam Driver in his Oscar nominated performance in Marriage Story. He doesn’t do a bad job either!! This really does make you think about life and very relevant for number 19!

DAY 20 – A song that has many meanings to you.

I chose ‘I Believe I Can Fly’ by R Kelly
A song that reminds me of being a mum and a song that used to send my eldest to sleep before we even hit the chorus!! It was a life saver.

DAY 21 – A song you like with a person’s name in the title.

I chose ‘Lydia’ by CC Smugglers.
Gonna miss these guys.

DAY 22 – A song that moves you forward.

I chose ‘Don’t You Forget About Me’ by Simple Minds.
What can I say, a song all about moving on and heading into the future.
Also, theme to one of my favourite films. The Breakfast Club.

DAY 23 – A song you think everybody should listen to.

I chose ‘Nina Cried Power’ by Hozier ft Mavis Staples.
What can I say, this is powerful stuff, wrapped up with a little Gospel.

DAY 24 – A song by a band you wish were still together.

I chose ‘Baker St 205’ by CC Smugglers.
There really was only one choice of band for this one, and Baker St 205 is one of my favourite songs. CC Smugglers disbanded in December 2019 after a string of amazingly bad luck.

DAY 25 – A song you like by an artist no longer living.

I chose ‘Ziggy Stardust’ by David Bowie.
I was lucky enough to see Bowie in concert. Sorely missed.

DAY 26 – A song that makes you want to fall in love.

I chose ‘Would That I’ by Hozier.
What can I say. This man knows how to write some seriously romantic lyrics.

DAY 27 – A song that breaks your heart.

I chose ‘The Show Must Go On’ by Queen
NEVER fails to make me cry. I had to walk out of the cinema when the end credits played when I went to see Bohemian Rhapsody and I still haven’t made it through the end credits, on Bluray.

DAY 28 – A song by an artist whose voice you love.

I chose ‘Movement’ by Hozier.
As if you haven’t already noticed, I do like a bit of Hozier and his voice is so mellow and relaxing.

DAY 29 – A song you remember from your childhood.

I chose ‘Shang-a-Lang’ by the Bay City Rollers.
The first band I really loved and my first album, given to me by my Auntie Kim!

FINALLY
DAY 30 – A song that reminds you of yourself.

I chose ‘I Want to Break Free’ by Queen.
With everything that’s going on at the moment and with what’s been happening personally over the last few weeks, this one seems very appropriate!

That’s it! Hope you enjoyed the choices.
It’s very difficult to choose just 30 songs from 50 years of life. There are loads of other songs I could have used, but on the whole, I think I’m pretty happy with my choices.

GETTING BACK ON TRACK

OK, I’m slowly getting back on track.
I’ve been doing a lot of cat napping over the last few days and I seem to be building up some stores of energy. I might even try and soak up some sun today to top it all off.

Where I go from here, all depends on what the Dr thinks of my weeks worth of blood pressure readings on Monday.
I don’t think they have been too bad, but then I’m not the professional.
I just want to get started on HRT and get on with my life.

Anyway, that’s not what this blog was meant to be about.

How is everyone coping with lockdown?

I see we still have idiots in the US who are demanding to get their country re-opened because ‘it’s my right to get a haircut!!’
They’re doing it while armed with guns and getting away with it!!
White men, dressed in camouflage, brandishing weapons in places of government.

Says it all really.
I can only wonder what kind of scenes we would be seeing on the news, had those same protesters been black!!
It doesn’t bare thinking about.

Apparently we have idiots in Ireland too, with a gathering due to take place this afternoon.

Anyway, back to reality.

Ian is now officially working from home again after being furloughed for the last three weeks.
He also received his letter officially telling him that he’s one of the ‘high risk categories’ and should now isolate himself as much as possible for the next 12 weeks.!!
Great!! Only 6 weeks late.
Just as well we already knew that anyway and he has been pretty much self isolating from day one.

The kids are all doing great.
Marjorie and Dharma are finishing off college and University projects.
Dharma has been told that her final project will probably be default graded and averaged against her previous results, which she is really happy about because she has got distinctions throughout!

Murron has pretty much moved into the garage!!
Not complaining. It means no arguments in the house and she can play her guitars, and sing to her hearts content, and facetime her friends with no worries.

Apart from my wobble this week, I’m not doing too bad either.
Although, I really need to think about doing a little more exercise.
I seem to have stagnated.
Hopefully the Dr will be helping me to feel a little more normal over the next few weeks and I can only help that by getting off my arse and also doing something about it.

What do I miss in Lockdown?

Apart from my Mum and Dad, who are literally just around the corner, I miss jumping into a car and nipping to the cinema occasionally.
I miss going out for a meal, followed by a cinema trip.

I have loads of time to watch movies at home, but it just isn’t the same.

With everything in the film world on hold, there is not really much in the way of news coming from Adam. I saw an amusing tweet this morning that was something like this….

The man has done exactly what I thought he would and gone to ground.
There hasn’t even been any confirmation that he made it back to the US safely from France when his film was put on hiatus back in March.

I’m assuming he did, as it would be plastered all over the news if he didn’t.
No, he is tucked away at home, looking after his wife, his son and his pupper, Moose!

With that said, there was a splash of potential news on Thursday, as Variety posted and article saying that Adam will star in an adaptation of ‘Yankee Comandante’. Although this has yet to appear on Adam’s IMDB page.

It will be based on a New Yorker article by David Grann, about two people who rose to the rank of Comandante during the Cuban Revolution.
One was Che Guevara and the other was William Alexander Morgan, a man from Ohio.

Adam is reportedly playing William Morgan.
And yes, after googling the man, he has chosen another film where his character dies!! This time by firing squad.

ADAM!! We need to see you in a happy ending, give us a break!!
Or even in more comedy. You gave us a taste with Logan Lucky and you are hysterical when you appear on SNL.

Recent movies are making me sad.
You went mad in Don Quixote.
You died in the Dead Don’t Die.
You came to terms with your lot in Marriage Story.
You died in Star Wars.
We know your character will come to a sticky end in The Last Duel.
And if Yankee Comandante is made, your character dies by firing squad.

This is not doing my lockdown mood any favours!!

Right, Midday already.
One thing I’ve noticed in lockdown is that you can waste so much time doing nothing!!

ANOTHER UPDATE

I have tried to stay quite upbeat in my posts recently, and to be fair, we’ve been dealing with the lockdown situation really well as a family.

However, personally, things are a little rough at the moment.
I have been in perimenopause for the last year. Something which can last for up to 5 years. Up until recently I had only really noticed the occasional hot flush and irregular cycle, both of which I could handle.

A couple of weeks ago my anxiety levels started to spike and I started to have panic attacks going into work.
I haven’t had a panic attack for 20 years!!
I put it down to the current situation and the fact that I’m a nurse and I worked through it.

However, things have gone from bad to worse.
My hot flushes are out of control, I’m having night sweats, I have regular palpitations, I’m putting on weight, my mood is low most of the time.
I am literally not sleeping and I am so tired I can barely function.

I have reached the point where I need to see a Doctor.
This is not as simple as it sounds in the current situation either. Adding to my stress.
I had a phone consultation on Monday and they wanted a BP and asked if I had a machine or could get hold of one.
I borrowed my Mums.
That machine showed I was hypertensive.
The Dr wants me to take a week of readings before deciding on a plan of action. Either the need to treat the blood pressure first or put me straight onto HRT.
I’ve been doing readings since Monday and today I’m having my BP machine checked by a practice nurse to make sure it’s giving me acurate readings.

That is where I’m at now.
Those readings will be given to the Dr on Monday and a decision made.
I just want to feel normal again.
I just need to sleep!!

GETTING OLD SUCKS!!!

LOCKDOWN IS EXPENSIVE!

I can’t stop spending!!

Thankfully, we cleared most of our finances at the start of the lockdown so it hasn’t been too much of a struggle.

We’ve been doing jobs that have needed doing for a long time like decorating the bathroom that required all new curtains, mats, towels and a floor to ceiling rack in the shower and a new clothes basket. I even re-potted the pot bound cactus!
The kitchen has seen a new microwave and kettle.

I treated myself to all new underwear.
I haven’t done this since Italy 3 years ago! It was all looking a bit tired and grey and wires were beginning to poke through.
While doing that I couldn’t resist some new linen trousers and tops for the summer!!

When I was on Twitter the other night, one of my favourite photographers was advertising a 20% discount on all books from his website.
I took a look and discovered that one of the books I bought at Xmas has now more than quadrupled in price!! I always new these books were a good investment.
So I have now added to my collection by another two! They will be arriving shortly.

We finally gave the garage a good sort out so that Murron has the den of her dreams. To be fair, she’s been living out there since the weather got better and today, an old college tutor offered her a sofa bed that virtually matches the two seater sofa she already has. They dropped it on the driveway this morning and Murron is now pottering around and organising the garage.
Now she wants my 32 inch TV that I use as a computer monitor and after what Marjorie has just done, she may get her wish.

Marjorie treated herself to a new 32 inch curved monitor.
This is an actual monitor and the resolution is much better for use with a computer. The monitor and picture is absolutely stunning!!
So today, I have decided to treat myself to one to replace my TV screen.
I’ve been saving onto a mad money card, so I can do it without impacting our normal budget.

Our normal budget is ridiculous at the moment too!!
I am down to once a week shops so I go a little overboard on stocking up to make sure everyone has something for the week, however, with 4 people in the house who can drink, coupled with the good weather and nothing else to do, our alcohol consumption has gone through the roof, along with our budget.

Thankfully, I think I am a place where I am now happy.
I have comfy clothes.
I will have a beautiful new monitor, not that I need any more of an excuse to sit at my computer.
The house is looking tidy and sorted.
Even the back garden is nice to sit in at the moment.

The only downside to all this is the rather large pile of rubbish that needs to go to the tip when it re-opens. Thankfully, this pile is stashed quite nicely at the bottom of the garden and is not too distracting when sat in the garden soaking up the sun.

Now I just need to STOP spending!!

LONG, HARD, LOOK

Life is a bit of a shitstorm at the moment, with the Coronavirus in full swing, lockdowns in place, and morons like Donald F###ing Trump threatening word war three at every turn.

I mean, in the last 24 hours, and on top of all the other bollocks he’s been tweeting, Trump actually tweeted “I have instructed the United States Navy to shoot down and destroy any and all Iranian gunboats if they harass our ships at sea”.

Do gunboats actually fly now?……

That’s really helpful. Thanks Don!!

Anyway, life itself is slapping me in the face at the moment.
Nature is cruel.
I say nature, because there is no God.
If there was a God, there would be no war and suffering and there wouldn’t be any viruses threatening humanity.

Don’t get me wrong, I understand people have their own beliefs, and if those beliefs bring them comfort and a way of dealing with their lives, then who am I to argue. I’m just saying, that personally, I thinks it’s all bollocks and we are on our own.

Women in particular should be sticking their two fingers up at any notion of God. What have they ever done for us?
At puberty we are given our monthly cycle. Something which is uncomfortable and embarassing at best, and excruciatingly painful at worst, and something to ‘endure’ every month of our fertile lives.
To procreate, we are expected to give birth to something the size of a melon, through a hole the size of an apple, and that’s AFTER morning sickness and cravings and weight gain during the pregnancy in the first place.

Then, after we have endured all that, we have menopause.
Now here is where this post becomes relevant.

Over the last year I have been noticing slight symptoms of menopause.
Nothing much. Hot flushes and irregular cycles. I could live with that.
However, things have ramped up a bit.

I have been saying for months that I need to loose weight and get a bit fitter.
Well, time is now most definitely NOT on my side.
It would appear that I am going through ‘the change’.
For the last year that has meant irregular cycles and hot flushes. Things I could deal with.
But my body has decided… NOPE!!
With everything else that is going on at the moment, I’m going to make you feel like SHIT!!
I’m going to give you night sweats and difficulty sleeping, I’m going to give you palpitations, headaches, stiff joints and low mood.

Thank you nature for picking the most inopportune moment to throw this at me.

I have found over the last month, during this lockdown period, I am not getting my usual exercise. My sleep pattern is atrocious and I am constantly feeling tired and rubbish.
I have good day and bad days.
The day before yesterday I was feeling crap!
Yesterday was actually a pretty good day.
Today I just feel…Meh!

Over the last month, during this lockdown, my weight has spiralled out of control.
I’m not getting my usual exercise.
On my days off I am stuffing my face with crap and booze.

I need to set a date to get back on track.
I think I also need to go and talk to my GP when they open their doors again.

Right!
Monday 27th April.
That’s my date.
It gives me a few days to get things out of my system and then I have to think about the next year.
I need to concentrate on my diet and exercise.
If I don’t lose this weight now, I never will.

How’s your lockdown going?

CATCH UP

So how is everyone doing during this unprecedented period in history.
How is your lockdown going?

Personally, my lockdown is going OK.
As a Paediatric Nurse, I still go to work, however, there have been BIG changes to the ‘norm’.
The feeling on a day to day basis is ‘ominous’ rather than scary and I really feel for my colleagues who work on the adult side.

My family have ‘so far’ been relatively unaffected.
My parents live just around the corner and apart from dropping something on their doorstep and then stepping to the end of the garden for a quick chat with Mum at the door, I haven’t had any contact with them for over three weeks now.

The extended family appear OK, I keep up with what’s happening over Facebook and Whatsapp.

I had a brilliant evening on Sunday as me and two of my girls joined my Brother, his wife and their kids, my Dad, and few of my Brother’s friends, for an online pub quiz via Zoom that my Brother had arranged.
It turned out to be a good laugh and we won! which was a bonus.

I have been doing a weekly, rather than every other day, shop at the local superstore and we are lucky enough to have a mini market and butcher right over the road, so basics like milk, bread and eggs are readily available when we run out, unfortunately they are also licensed and the household alcohol consumption has gone through the roof!!

The kids continue with their evening walks for exercise and I really need to think about ramping up my own exercise as I am not up to my usual level of mobility. Sitting at home on days off, drinking and snacking, has seen my weight creeping up rather quickly and Ian has literally spent three weeks locked in our bedroom and only comes down for food.

Anyway, we haven’t got away from the Coronavirus completely unscathed.
There have been several losses from the local music community, one of which hit home pretty hard as my daughter lost one of her band mates last week. He was a much loved and highly respected member of the local music community and is going to leave a very large hole in the music scene when it gets back together after the lockdown.

One good thing on my days off, is that I now have the perfect excuse to binge my movies!!
I have been keeping a record of what I watch for a few years, particularly cinema trips, so that we make the most of our Cineworld cards, but last year got completely forgotten about as I came to the end of my University course and getting registered and starting my new job as a Nurse Associate. There just wasn’t time to think about films.

So in January, I decided to start fresh. I did not consider the lockdown that was to come, and although going to the cinema is only a dream at the moment, it has meant that I get to binge to my hearts content at home.
I’ve just done a bit of a tally and, considering we are only 106 days into the year, I have watched 131 movies!!

With the world shut down at the moment, and all movie filming and releases put on hold, I am getting no news or updates about any projects I’m interested in or indeed my favourite actors.

One actor in particular has done exactly what I expected him to do.
Adam Driver, is a fiercely private man at the best of times. Let’s face it, keeping the fact that you became a Daddy secret for two whole years is pretty good going!
After filming for ‘The Last Duel’ was put on Hiatus because of the Coronavirus, there has been no news about Adam. Nothing. Not even a notification to say he’d even made it home safely.
Anyway, I have no doubt he has locked himself away with his wife and son and their dog, Moose, and is enjoying his family before everything goes back to normal.

Until last night, things had been pretty dull when it came to anything to do with future movie releases and then BAM! we get a whole slew of new images from the new production of ‘Dune’, due for release in December.

Now Timothee Chalamet is playing Paul Atreides.
Anyone who reads my blog regularly will know that I have a soft spot for this young man and the first look at him as Paul is very promising.

BUT…..

The picture of Oscar Isaac who plays Paul’s father, Duke Leto, is something else!! Oh Daddy!

Now they’ve dangled these images at us, I hope they will be followed up by a first look trailer.
Then we only have to hope that this whole shit storm is over, and life is going back to normal by December so that it actually gets it’s release date on the 18th December.

Think I have just found a new countdown to add to my blog page.

Right, Keep that social distancing going. Stay safe. XX

UNBELIEVABLE

I don’t know why I do it to myself!!!
It started as a laugh.
I followed Donald Trump on Twitter quite a while ago.
The drivel that spouts out of that orange Twat’s mouth is, during normal times, absolutely hysterical, however, we are not in normal times and his drivel and self superiority are becoming increasing dangerous.

He currently tweets on a daily basis….

“White House news conference today at 5:00 P.M. Eastern. Thank you!”

Like he thinks people are going to forget!!

He tweets like a petulant 6 year old.
He attacks anyone who disagrees with him in any way, shape or form.
He boasts about things he’s done and drivels on about ‘his’ popularity and ratings. Most of which is absolute BULLSHIT!

His daily Coronavirus news conferences have started to show his true colours.
He attacks any reporter who dares to ask a question he doesn’t like and regularly uses terms like ‘lamestream’ or ‘fake news’.
So much for ‘freedom of speech’

It is quite clear that this man is living in Cloud Cuckoo Land.
Considering the current death toll in the US, particularly New York who are having to dig mass graves, he is seriously thinking about lifting lockdown precautions because apparently, they’ve got Coronavirus on the the run.

Can you believe he is actually thinking of sending all the Kindergarten, elementary, middle and high school kids back to school on 11th May!
He won’t be sending college students back until Sept though.
No, because college students can look after themselves at home and he needs the parents of all the other kids to go back to work for the economy!!

Sending all those kids back into a melting pot of the virus to take it all back home to those same parents and carers and then the virus will explode again and be even more devastating the second time around.

Watching him drivel on at these daily news conferences is painful!
He hasn’t got a clue what he’s talking about. He has all his experts around him but rarely gives them chance to speak. They are even seen to be wincing at statements he makes.

Yesterday he stooped to a new low and actually showed a ‘sizzle’ reel of what he says he’s done and achieved since Coronavirus reared it’s ugly head in China. It was designed to do nothing but boost his ego and one reporter in particular noted that it completely skipped over anything that was done during February and she absolutely roasted him.

The fact is that during February, he did nothing but play golf, hold rallies and Tweet drivel has not gone unnoticed and hopefully, Americans who voted him into office are finally seeing the error they have made. I just hope that thousands of Americans don’t end up losing their lives because of idiotic decisions made by this total imbecile.

BOREDOM

So, after being sent home from work on Saturday, I’ve been resting,…. kinda.
I spent Saturday and Sunday watching movies. I won’t deny that I was tempted into the garden a little bit on Sunday and tidied up the Budlea and Dharma helped me cut the grass.

Today, my swollen eye is not swollen, although the right side of my face still feels quite heavy. My earache is just that, a mild ache. It’s never got any worse than that. I haven’t felt unwell and I haven’t had a single temperature. So, unless things change, it’s back to work on Wednesday.

The boredom actually kicked in today.
I made a rainbow!!

I’ve also done washing, made dinner and I even helped Murron make a chocolate cheesecake!

The house has been organised and happy!
There’s something to be said for this lockdown. Never thought I’d see my kids cooperating and having fun together like this.
Murron and Marjorie are currently chopping firewood for the firepit tonight. Dharma is just keeping herself to herself and face timing friends.

The only issue in the house now is Ian.
He’s been fighting a tooth infection and was on antibiotics as we went into lockdown. It now looks like the infection is back with a vengeance.
He called the dentist today to try and get an emergency appointment but there’s one small problem…..

The dentist doesn’t have any PPE!!
So he currently can’t do anything except put Ian back onto antibiotics.
Just need to hope that Ian doesn’t actually get unwell now and need to go to the hospital.

And how had your day been?

FELLED BY AN EARACHE!

Today did not go as expected.
I nipped off to work at 7am and was home again by 7:40am.

I didn’t sleep particularly well and by the time my alarm went off I had quite a good little earache on the go. Nothing major, no temperature, nothing to stop me going to work.
So I carried on with my morning. Milky coffee and a trawl through the news before heading out at 7am.

BUT……

By the time I got to work, my right eyelid had started to swell and droop and my right cheek felt heavy.
I got sent home.

Great, I’ve just checked online and, because of the current Coronavirus situation, the walk in centres are all closed.
I’m not calling 111 for an earache!!

Anyway, online advice has all said that minor earaches can often self resolve within 3 days.
I’m not at work tomorrow, so, fingers crossed, this will clear up on it’s own.
I’m not feeling unwell, my earache is not even bad enough to warrant painkillers, but I take them for my knees anyway. I certainly don’t have a temperature and there is no redness around my eye.
So! A couple of days of rest, not that I can do much else at the moment, should hopefully do the trick.
I think I will avoid the painkillers today, just to see if I am actually getting temperatures without realising it.

And how has your day started?

ANXIETY

It’s been a surreal week.
First week in lock down for the family and, so far they’ve done pretty well.
There have a been a couple of occasions with frayed tempers but otherwise, things have been OK.
We’ve minimised our trips to the shop and the girls have let off a little steam by going for walks.

I was at work Monday and Tuesday, and on both occasions I had to fight down a minor panic attack on my way in each morning.
I haven’t had a panic attack in over 20 years!!
Thankfully, once I got stuck into each shift, the panic attacks were forgotten about.

The rest of the week I’ve had off.
Originally it was a way to use up the last of my annual leave before it’s refreshed in April. It was supposed to be a way to chill and recharge my batteries, but it has turned into something else due to the Corona Virus pandemic and lockdown.

I’ve used the last 4 days to get the house and garden into some sort of order, so that everyone has their own space and their own jobs to do.
With Ian on Furlough, Murron out of work and Marjorie and Dharma on furlough and college/Uni closed down, I have four adults in the house who need something to do.

As I am still working, and doing a job that is already stressing me out and likely to get worse in the coming weeks, it is only fair that they take on the running of the house. My aim over the last 5 days was to get it to a point where they can just keep on top of it all and help to keep me de-stressed.

So, with the amazing weather over the last few days, the first thing was to tidy the patio up so we all have somewhere to sit when the weather REALLY warms up. We spent two days jet washing and de-weeding the patio and jet washed all the window sills and windows before buffing them up to a sparkle. The grass still needs cutting and the borders need digging over and de-weeding, but that can wait.

We’re on top of the washing, I just need to finish a little ironing today.
Friday and Saturday were spent decorating the bathroom.
It was in desperate need of an overhaul.
We’ve got all new towels, curtains and mats etc on order. They should have arrived on Friday but the delivery service was paused for a few days while they decided how to tackle deliveries in the current lock down situation, but the bathroom is ready for when it all turns up and we will then have a room that we can actually relax in.

Today I’m going to have a tidy up. Do some hoovering and dusting and finish the ironing.

The family have been told to pick out two lock down outfits.
They are to be items that can all go into a dark wash.
They will all then alternate their outfits on a daily basis.
Dharma is then going to be responsible for collecting the dirty outfits each day and throwing them into the wash and getting them dry ready for the following day.
Hopefully, if this goes to plan, it will seriously reduce the need for any ironing. It will literally just be my uniforms and clothes that need the occasional iron.

Tomorrow I’m back at work. Mon, Weds, Thurs, Sat.
I wish I could say I was looking forward to it, but right now, that would be a lie. In ordinary circumstances I love my job. Working with the kids and their families and hopefully making their stay on the ward a little easier is actually very rewarding, but right now, with all that’s predicted to happen over the next few weeks, it’s actually very scary and my anxiety is through the roof. I can already feel it in my chest. I know I won’t be sleeping tonight and I predict a panic attack on my way into work.

So, if I come home to a shit hole each evening, I am seriously going to lose my rag with the family and I will make their lives a living misery.
They have been warned.