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Mum of three.
X graphic designer turned mum. When the need to go back out to work arrived, I became a Clinical Support Worker completely by accident. I was a support worker for 9 years and was actually awarded Clinical Support Worker of the Year 2011 at my trust.
I have just completed a 2 year University course as a Trainee Nursing Associate and now I am one of the countries first registered Nurse Associates. I am also a Paediatric based Nurse Associate which makes me quite rare. I have been married for 25 years.


I love my movies.
I love my programmes.
I love my good looking men with gorgeous eyes and smiles……….. the bods aint bad either!

I spent a lot of my teenage years going to the cinema or watching videos.
It was my thing…… movies.

I don’t get to go the the cinema as much as I’d like to nowadays though.
Apart from having three kids in tow, it’s just too damned expensive.

I love all kinds of films and I’m very eclectic when it comes to my choices.
However, by far my favourites are Superhero movies.
I just love them. Is it the costumes? Is it the muscles?


Top of the favourites has got to be Superman.
Christopher Reeve will always be ‘my’ Superman. Brandon Routh did an amazing job but was constantly being compared to Reeve and got caught in the middle of ‘rights’ Wrangles and ultimately his contract ran out. Henry Cavill is shapeing up quite nicely for next year’s re-boot of the franchise and judging by the first official picture, it’s going to be a lot more gritty and earthy looking and not quite so ‘camp’.

Some other recent heroes to grab my interest have been Captain America, the Green Lantern and Thor.
Of the three, Captain America is really floating my boat! Chris Evans is simply scrumptious and it’s not the first time he’s played a superhero. He was also Johnny Storm, the Human Torch in the Fantastic Four movies.


To say that I’m just a little bit excited about the new Avengers Movie would be an understatement!
Captain America, Thor, Hawkeye, Iron Man…. all scrumtiously crammed into the same movie.

Can’t wait!!

So the only question remaining now is……..

Costumes? or Muscles?

That’s a tough one. Every girls got to have a fantasy….. right?


This year is shaping up to be really lousy and we haven’t even hit February yet!

Marjorie’s MRI was reviewed at the Royal Orthopaedic Hospital in London yesterday and then this morning we received a letter marked URGENT wanting us to attend an appoinment next month.
So much for getting is sorted in Bedford.

To top that one off Murron had to go for an X-ray on her thumb this week.
The thumb she annihilated a couple of years ago and has had multiple surgeries on to try and fix the nail bed has started locking up on her.
So, we are waiting to go back to the Dr’s this week to get the results but we are half expecting her to get referred to the Orthopeadics or at least to the physiotherapists.

Ian is having problems with pain in one of his shoulders and could need surgery on it to help relieve it and all the stress over the last few weeks is making his arthritis flare up anyway.

My left foot is the least of my worries at the moment!
Be just my luck if the splint I’m being fitted with next month looks like a bloody ski boot!


Today was a much better outing to the hospital with Marjorie.
Anything sinister has been ruled out so we can give a HUGE sigh of relief.
Looks like she may have a condition called Freiburg’s Disease which means that basically the blood supply around the growth plate on her second metatarsal has stopped and that part of the bone and cartledge is now dead.
It is localised and won’t spread but it does need to be dealt with.

The first step is to get her MRI to the Royal National Orthopaedics Hospital in London to get the diagnosis confirmed or not as the case may be.
If it’s confirmed then discussions will begin with the Paediatric Ortho consultant at our local hospital which is great because Marjorie is already under his continuing care for her previous hip dysplasia.
This is where we hope it will end but if that consultant can’t tackle the problem then the next option are the foot and ankle specialists at Addenbrookes. If they can’t tackle a paediatric patient then worse case scenario is surgery in a London hospital.

So! Now we are just waiting. Her MRI should be dicussed next Friday at the London hospital. We have a follow up in 3 weeks anyway but we should hopefully have confirmation before then.
Until then we can just get on with life with a HUGE weight lifted off our shoulders.

Might actually get some decent sleep tonight!


To say I’m just a bit pissed off is an understatement.
We had a follow up appointment for Marjorie with the orthopaedic consultant today after her ‘urgent’ MRI on Friday.
The appoinment was for 10:40 this morning and we finally got seen at……. drum roll please…..


Already frazzled by the wait we got into the office to be confronted by the Registrar and not the Consultant, because he had been unavoidably detained by an emergency, only to be told that they couldn’t find the MRI report.
Because it was so late, all secretaries that could have helped were on their lunch breaks and there was no clinic this afternoon so we would need to come back on Friday!

Great, I’m supposed to be working and Ian is supposed to be going onto nights.
Looks like I can do a short shift on Friday and finish early but if they can’t get hold of any bank staff to cover my afternoon I could really be leaving them in the lurch.


OK, first one of 2012.
Someone who keeps himself very quiet. Literally.
Jim Caviezel.

6’2″ with incredible eyes and a beautiful voice.

He crops up a lot in various films and TV shows but he is very understated and quietly spoken although he can kick ass when he needs to.

Technically I first saw him in G.I.Jane with Demi Moore where he was playing a bit of a meat head but he didn’t really grab my attention until a few years later when he made Frequency with Dennis Quaid, a very clever film.
Then I saw him in the costume drama re-make of Count of Monte Cristo where he played the lead role of Edmond Dantes. YUM!!
This film also introduced me to one of my previous Dishes, a very young and handsome and soon to be Superman, Henry Cavill!
He played Jesus in a very contoversial ‘Passion of Christ’ before swinging in completely the opposite direction and kicking ass in ‘Outlander’.
He was ‘6’ in the recent re-make mini series of ‘The Prisoner’ and can currently be seen in the TV series ‘Person of Interest’.

He is a busy man with three films in pre and post production for this year.
He is also a deeply religious and spritual man in a loving marriage and has adopted 2 children and nursed them both through brain tumors although he keeps his beliefs and his family life very quiet and private.


OK, here we are, half way through January already. It’s frightening!
Beginning to feel old now and I need to do something about it.

So today is a clearout and blowout day. Time to finish off the last of the Xmas nibbles. Yes, we STILL have Xmas nibbles. a bag of my homemade sausage rolls and a bag of gammon for sandwiches.
There are a few beers in the fridge and some crisps hidden under my desk (out of sight of the kids!!)

Tomorrow is a fresh start for everyone.
I have a wedding to go to in a couple of months and I also have a problem with my left foot that I’m trying to get resolved and losing some weight will go a long way to helping.
Ian desperately needs to lose some weight to help with his psoritic arthritis.
Marjorie loves her food. She eats healthily and loves her veggies but seriously needs to cut down on the amount she’s eating because it’s beginning to show.
Dharma is eating the wrong things at the wrong time. Cheese toasties for breakfast, guzzling her tea and going out to play before coming in and eating all over again!! She’s getting a bit pudgy.
Murron is doing OK though but there are a few things she can do to improve.

My aim for the year is to get down to at least a size 20 by next Xmas but hopefully a little more.
It’s achievable I just need to get my head round it.

So, time to enjoy the rest of my day relaxing and nibbling and drinking and making the most of it.


I’ve always been a big believer in the quote ‘reality is for people with no imagination’
I love to escape into a good film or TV series.
I am very eclectic when it comes to my choices too.
Films don’t always have to be intellectual and thought provoking, they can also be exciting and thrill busting and not need a lot of brain power to thoroughly enjoy.

I like to switch off in the evenings with a good dose of something from the film or TV genre.
Unfortunately just lately, things have been getting a little stale and predictable in the TV stakes.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love shows like CSI, all three of them, but after 10 years it’s all getting just a little bit predictable.

We’ve had some good new shows appear in the last couple of years like Castle and White Collar and Covert Affairs and these all seem to be holding their own with renewals into new seasons.

Occasionally we get let down though.
Occasionally a show will appear. It will be so innovative and thought provoking that narrow minded people and TV exectutives just can’t see it through to a renewal.
Shows like ‘Off The Map, Moonlight, Mercy, Miami Medical, Kyle XY, Surface, Invasion’, were all prematurely cancelled. They all had great potential and some were even left on a cliffhanger with no closure for the fans. They will forever be left wondering what happened.

This seems to be the fate of a current favourite. A Gifted Man is an amazing new show. It has been consistantly getting better and better with each new episode. However, on a quick scan through the internet to see how it’s been doing and if there is any sniff of renewal news I have been dissapointed to find out that most sites are predicting it’s cancellation. This is a real dissapointment. It’s a show that has really found a place in my weekly viewings. I rate it above ‘all’ of the CSI’s. I would love for it to continue for a few more years. Looks like I’m just going to have to wait a little while longer for an official stamp on whether or not it’s being renewed.

On the plus side though, another new show that has made it into my top ten is ‘Suits’
How cool is this show?
The good news is that it has already been given a second series so it’s looking good for at least the next year, but hopefully a few more.

With this year starting out in such a shitty way, I could well be depending on some of these shows to lift me out of a cloud for an hour or so every now and again.


Here we are, 1 week into 2012 already.
How quickly we forget about Christmas and New Year.

I had high hopes for this year.
We were going to keep our heads above water. Concentrate on paying off the credit cards and just get on with life in a relaxed and happy way. We weren’t going to stress over things.

The reality…….

A couple of weeks before Xmas Marjorie developed a real pain in her right foot. She hadn’t done anything to hurt it. No trauma, no one had stood on it, she hadn’t kicked anything (including her sisters)
We took her to A+E and got it X-rayed anyway. They told us there was no break and that it was just soft tissue damage. We were happy with that.


By Weds 4th January her pain was worse and not any better so. I had a nagging worry in the back of my mind. One of the downsides of working on a children’s ward. The word Osteomyelitis kept popping in there and I decided to get her seen by the GP and express my concern.
As I was at work, Ian we took her to the GP but the GP wasn’t convinced it was anything to worry about but I have seen similar symptoms on the ward too many times.
I pushed to get her seen in Ambulatory on the ward at work. I literally had to fight the GP who wanted to just refer her to orthopeadics via a letter which would have taken up to 6 weeks. If it was Osteomyelitis this was not a good idea.
Ian and Marjorie finally arrived on the ward and spent the afternoon getting X-rays and bloods done and Orthopeadics were brought in to take a look. They had another X-Ray taken and after the blood results came back normal she was released from the ward to be seen by Mr Sood, one of the Ortho consultants on Thursday.
On Thurs Mr Sood took a good look at Marjorie and her X-rays and was concerned enough to order an emergency MRI scan. He wanted it done as soon as possible within the next two weeks!
Great, 2 weeks. Now I am worrying about a bit more than just Osteomyelitis, I’m worrying about bone tumors.

Anyway, I got home from work today to find the MRI appointment had arrived and it’s on Friday 13th!!
Ominous date or what!
So, a stressful week it is then.

All of this in just the first 7 days and to top this all off, Ian may well be in line for surgery on his shoulder to try and relieve arthritis pain at some point this year and I have been referred to orthotics to get fitted for a splint to wear on my left foot for 3 – 6 months. If this doesn’t relieve my pain then I could also be in line for surgery later this year.

So!! Happy new year!!!
Worst start to a new year EVER!