So, today is the first day of the rest of my life.
Lockdown and working for the NHS aside, I’ve had a particularly tough week as my perimenopause decided that irregular periods and the occasional hot flush were not enough.
I’ve known I was heading into ‘the change’ for about the last year, but about 3 or 4 weeks ago, my anxiety increased and I started having panic attacks on my way into work.
Considering I work for the NHS, and with the current COVID situation, I simply put it down to my brain working overtime and the added stress, and I managed to work through it.
However, about 2 weeks ago, symptoms worsened and my hot flushes turned into full on night sweats and I was barely sleeping. If I had more than 2 hours of unbroken sleep, I was lucky.
I was getting more and more tired as time progressed, until last week, I was absolutely all over the place at work and could barely think. As I look after patients and handle medications, I did not feel confident in my ability to ‘safely’ look after anyone, so I took myself out of the equation.
I have been off work for the last week and talking to my GP.
After keeping a record of my blood pressure for a few days, they have started me on Hormone Replacement Therapy! (HRT)
Although I am still not sleeping right, I have been cat napping throughout the last week and have reached a point where I feel I can now cope better and I will be returning to work on Thursday.
I have literally just taken my first HRT tablet and I have to say that, I am both hopeful and terrified.
Hopeful in that my hot flushes and night sweats should ease off or even stop altogether and my sleep should improve.
But terrified after reading the information leaflet that came with them!!
I know they have to put absolutely every bit of information about ‘possible’ side effects into these leaflets, but talk about putting the fear of god into someone.
Anyway, reading about other people’s experience on the same medication, I know it will take a good 2 – 3 weeks to really start to notice any benefits, and I have literally JUST taken my first tablet.
So, today is a new start.
Persevere with the tablets.
Improve my diet.
Increase my exercise.
I have a target to aim for.
My best friend is getting married in June 2022. So I have two years to get my shit together and lose some serious weight.
I now, literally, have no excuse!
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