Month: October 2017


It’s been a very odd day.

I was at work for 07:30 this morning for a long day today and I was expecting my mentor to be there because she said she would be.
This was important to me today because I needed a Mentor Verification form signed so that I could submit my next report before the deadline on Monday at 10 am.
I get to work only to discover she’s on annual leave until Monday!!!!
After a slight panic attack, I messaged her and thankfully she was able to pop onto the ward and sign my form. To say that I love her is an understatement!!
So my report is now submitted and I can breath again.

Work was busy which is not unusual but today I had the added worry of finding out that my eldest daughter had called her Dad home from work to be taken to A+E.
The crippling pain she had last week was back with a vengeance.
She’s flumoxed the surgeons.
Blood tests are clear. X-ray is clear. Her symptoms aren’t following any patterns for anything. There is a ‘possibility’ she has a burst ovarian cyst and also she ‘may’ have passed a kidney stone!
Anyway, she’s home now with some happy pills and is waiting for a couple of outpatient scans to come through. Only time will tell what is actually wrong but at least she’s not admitted.

Mid afternoon I found out that I had passed my Anatomy and Physiology exam I took on Monday. After all the worry about not studying enough I actually ended up with 74% which gave me an A-.
Chuffed is an understatement.


I am off for the next two days and I am actually looking forward to doing some ‘normal’ Mummy stuff.
Gutting the eldest daughters bedroom is top of the list.
Is it very sad to say I’m actually looking forward to it?
I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have to worry about University work.


So this is how my day went…..

Arrived at work to start shift at 07:30.
Receive call from number one daughter about crippling abdominal pain just after handover.
Come home and talk to NHS 111 who advise getting her seen by Doctor within 6 hours.
Get seen. No worries but sent for blood tests just in case.
Get blood test done.
Get anti sickness meds from Pharmacy.
Arrive home.
Find out number three daughter has been sent home not feeling well.
Get back to work for just after midday.
Have a pretty good afternoon.
Get some great reference material for an essay from the Matron.
Make it to 20:00 hours only to realise you were only on an early shift and ‘technically’ could have gone home at 15:30!!!!


Anyway, This weekend will consist of studying Sat and Sun for my exam on Monday but will be broken up by a night out in town with the hubby to see CC Smugglers!!!

Can’t wait.




Only 57 days to go until The Last Jedi hits the big screen.

All the new merchandise is now hitting the shops ready for Xmas and new artwork and tidbits of information weasel their way onto the internet almost on a daily basis.

Musings and theories by other fans continue to cause the occasional ruckus but Disney have done their usual incredible job of keeping the important stuff under wraps. Drip feeding the fandom with the tiniest reveals and keeping them salivating for more.

One of my favourite theories at the moment is to do with Kylo destroying the academy and killing all the students.
After The Force Awakens, everyone was quick to hate on Kylo. His reputation as ‘The Jedi Killer’ was set in stone.


In a new theory, is that reputation really set in stone?
We now know, from the new trailer, that Luke is scared of Rey’s power and stated that he’d seen it only once before. It didn’t scare him enough back then and it does now.

What if Kylo, back at the academy, lost control of his immense power and inadvertantly destroys the academy, killing all the students?
What would that do to him mentally?
Did he run, thinking his family would never accept him for what he’s done?
Did Snoke find him and manipulate him?
It could explain his struggle with the light if he’s not totally convinced by the dark.
Does Kylo struggle with forgiving himself and believe he only deserves the dark?
It would also explain why he was so quick to pick up on Rey’s ability and his offer of help.

If this is the case, it will make giving Kylo a redemption much easier to swallow for all the fans who cannot forgive him for killing Han Solo and his treatment of Rey in Force Awakens.

It’s going to take a lot for Rey to even come close to trusting Kylo again but I have no doubt that she will.
I still believe they will be joining forces (so to speak) but I do not think it will be romantically. I believe that they will need each other to bring their powers under control and I believe that we could be seeing our first ‘grey’ jedi.


I found some new artwork today.
Lightside and darkside standups for cinema foyers.

There is some amazing artwork emerging for the Last Jedi and these are no exception!!
But look closely.
What suddenly strikes you?

Luke is in both of them!! Light and Dark.
light-side 2.jpg

Dark side


And then you realise that the dark side image of Luke is also used in the glorious official poster for the film.

last jedi poster

I really have no clue what twists and turns Rian Johnson has planned for us in this movie.
It’s going to be great!!


So today I had a taste, albeit just a small one, of what the LGBTQ community have to deal with on a daily basis.

I was in town minding my own business when I became aware of a group of very immature teenagers walking behind me.
I will say I was, and hate to say it, dressed in what bigots have classed as ‘stereotypical lesbian’ attire. Plaid shirt, jeans, extremely short hair, tattoos and piercings etc.
It soon became clear that the group were talking and giggling about me.
As I turned around to give them ‘the look’, the lead bitch in the group right out asked me ‘are you a lesbian?!

My brain went… WTF!!!

Without missing a beat I simply replied, ‘why, are you interested?’

I’ve never seen anyone turn that shade of red so quickly and disappear as fast in my life.
Her friends were very amused.

As satisfied as I was with the outcome of this little meeting, it begs the question…
Why the fuck did she think she could ask anyone that question?
It’s nobody’s business what anybody’s sexuality is.
Do we go around asking people if they are heterosexual?

No we don’t.

It’s not surprising really when we have the likes of Donald Trump, who is unfortunately one of the most powerful men on the planet, addressing an anti-lesbian, gay, bi and trans conference.
After repeatedly claiming to be pro-LGBT during his election campaign, President Trump has continuously shown a disregard for the protection and rights of LGBT people.

After joining the group ‘Come Out for LGBT’ my Twitter feed is filled with headlines like…

‘More than two in five trans people, avoid certain streets because they don’t feel safe’

‘One in five LGBT people have experienced a hate crime or incident because of their sexual orientation and/or gender identity in the last twelve months.

‘Four in five anti-LGBT hate crimes and incidents go unreported, with younger LGBT people particularly reluctant to go to the police.

I want to cry.
Why can’t people just be left alone to be who they want to be and love who they want to love.
Why are some in other countries imprisoned or even put to death simply because of who they love or how they want to live.

The fact that some couples can’t even hold their partner’s hand in public for fear of repercussions makes my heart bleed.

I really can’t understand it.
It’s not a difficult concept.
It shouldn’t be debated or voted on.
It should just be accepted.
The world would be a much happier place.


Something I like to indulge in occasionally is Gymnastics.
Not personally, although I did do it as a child. Vaulting was my thing if you can believe that!!
No, I like to watch big events like the Olympics and the World championships.
What the gymnasts of today can do absolutely astounds me.
That, and the fact that the men are ‘built’ doesn’t hurt!!

The recent World championships in Montreal were amazing, although one moment shone out for me.
Dutchman and Olympic champion and 2 time world champion, Epke Zonderland made an error during his performance. An error that he turned into pure gold (well Silver at least!!).

If you watch this video, at around 0.25 he performs a Kovacs, which he is supposed to catch with both hands. His left hand misses and where most gymnasts would not be able to hang on, he catches with one arm connecting it into a Kovacs + One Arm Giant Swing combination. It has never been seen before and it isn’t listed in the Code of Points so he didn’t get any credit for it. He lost the gold but won silver. Just look at the reaction of his team mate!! It’s hysterical!! and the look on his face as he lands the routine just says it all ‘How the hell did I manage that?!!’


If you are one of these strange people who don’t like watching trailers before a movie is released, please do not go any further.
You have been warned.

OK, it’s been a few days now since the new trailer for Star Wars: The Last Jedi hit the internet.
Can I just say ‘OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!’

It had the desired effect I was expecting. Excitement, confusion, anticipation, surprise.
I think I was actually holding my breath through the entire first watch.

I think it’s done it’s job very well.
It has given us a good feel for how the movie will play out but I think there are one or two red herrings in there to throw us off the scent.

On the internet, it always amuses me to what lengths people will argue about what they believe will happen. They have a viewpoint, they’ve read the trailer one way and if anyone argues otherwise, all hell breaks loose! Most of the time it’s all in good humour.

‘Most of the time’!

Anyway, after scrutinising the trailer myself over the last few days, I thought I’d give you my perspective.

Remember, these are my thoughts and viewpoints…. I could be completely wrong!!
This is the fun part.
Trying to figure it all out and then being completely dumbfounded when you realise you’d got it all wrong and they pull something completely different out of the bag.

The opening few seconds….

Yes!! My baby looking all lonely, contemplative and angsty.
I love that Kylo is now out of the robes and into a more form fitting uniform.
We actually get to ‘see’ Adam in this movie. He’s big and he’s beautiful.
What is he overseeing? Preparation for a battle?

Rey is taking to her lightsabre. She’s looking determined.
Daisy is looking really good. Her exercise regime has definately paid off.

So, Luke is afraid of Rey’s powers because they remind him of Kylo’s. I really hope this film explores what actually happened at Luke’s academy and how Kylo became known as ‘The Jedi Killer’. Why is Luke so scared?

Can I just say again….. Adam is looking incredible in this film!!
At least we get to actually see his face through most of this one.
If there’s one thing Adam can do very well it’s angst and anger.
Listen to how calm he is when delivering the line ‘Let go of the past…. kill it, if you have to’.
And yes!! He’s still having tantrums.
Ooooh chills.

This, I believe, is a red herring. We are meant to believe that Kylo kills Leia but there is just no way this is going to happen. Look at the angst on his face as his finger hovers over that button!
Besides, it would be sloppy writing on Rian’s part to have Kylo kill both parents and we know that Leia (Carrie) is going to be given a better send off than that!!
Kylo is going to be more conflicted in The Last Jedi than he was in Force Awakens.
I am going to love every minute of it!!

I still don’t know what to make of them.
My kids love them and they haven’t even seen the movie yet.
I suspect there’s a lot more to them than we have been lead to believe. I have no doubt they are going to be some of the comic relief of this movie, but I also believe they are not to be underestimated.

Poe and Finn throw themselves into the hero spots of the film and I can’t wait to see that fight between Finn and Phasma.

I think, in the context of the trailer, this little line is aimed directly at the audience!!
I think Luke is right. I don’t think anyone has a clue how this is going to play out. Regardless of all the hype and speculation, I think there are going to be plenty of twists and turns and shocks along the way.
Also… the crystaline foxes… what significance do they have? They are obviously being protected by the resistance as the planet is attacked. Are they indiginous? Are they intelligent? Have they been helping the resistance?

OK, this is a scene I’ve watched over and over.
I believe this is going to be a pivotal moment. Not for Rey, but for Kylo!!

If you look closely at the scene earlier in the trailer where Kylo is picking up his sabre, it is obviously taking place in the same room Rey is being tortured by Snoke. You see the red guards in the back of both images. When Snoke says the words ‘fullfill your destiny’, I believe they are being spoken to Kylo.
Has he just been told to kill Rey, to complete his training, to become the most powerful sith that ever lived?
Is this the moment Kylo decides on a different path?

This is the moment that is causing more discourse on the internet than any other.
Here’s my take on it and please remember that this is just a theory. I’m not insisting I’m right and I’m probably completely wrong.

I believe this is the biggest red herring in the entire trailer.
I have no doubt that Kylo and Rey will be joining forces (excuse the pun) in some form during this movie but I don’t think it is in this moment. In fact I think they are two completely different scenes that have been cleverly cut together.

I believe Rey is actually talking to Luke at the beginning of the movie when she says ‘I need someone to show me my place in all this’.

As to who Kylo is holding his hand out to?
It could still very well be Rey but I believe it could also be Leia.

I’ve done it. That’s what I got out of this trailer.
Now I just have to wait another two months to find out.

I already have my tickets for a double bill starting on 13th Dec at 21:00 with The Force Awakens and this leads into a midnight showing of The Last Jedi. I will be amongst the first to see it. I can’t wait!!

So I have just wasted a couple of hours playing with this and have rattled off around a thousand words.
I now have to get back to an essay that I still need to write and reference 1500 more words for.
Bet it doesn’t get finished today!!


Well there’s a morning of essay writing I’m never getting back.

I have some new ‘mandatory’ training to attend at work and we’ve been given a set of dates and times, most of which are on a Monday or a Tuesday which I absolutely cannot do.

So I picked one of the few Wednesdays on offer and went for a morning session so I could work on my essay this afternoon.
I couldn’t get parked at the hospital so I parked in town and walked in.
When I get there I find that this particular ‘drop in’ session has been cancelled!!!
I could come back this afternoon for 15:30 though.


So not only did I lose pressure work time this morning, I now have to take time out of my essay time this afternoon with no guarantee of getting parked at the hospital again.

What a waste of precious time I don’t have.