So 2016 has been a globally bad year.
Let’s face it. It’s been a SHIT year.
The loss of too much talent to comprehend.
Most notably for me, and I know I’ve missed a lot of names off this list….
The world in general just seems to be going to pot.
Brexit, Trump, Aleppo, Bombings galore, earthquakes, plane disasters, we are closer to a third world war than we have been in 20 years, Zika virus…… the list goes on.
It’s enough to make you want to completely avoid watching or reading the news and keep yourself in a protective bubble away from it all, but that would be impossible.
Personally things have been tough too.
Finances were and still are a struggle after Ian had to take a pay cut to take a position off of shifts. After over 30 years, shifts and night work were taking a toll and he needed to get off of them. The good news is that the position he’s taken is more challenging for him and he has more scope to progress and hopefully earn ‘more’ money than he did on shift.
In the meantime we are still having to deal with being £300 – £400 down on our usual take home pay.
Health in general has been poor all round.
Ian’s Psoriatic Arthritis is really giving him problems at the moment.
He’s finally been diagnosed with a sever vitamin D deficiency which could be causing a lot of his symptoms at the moment, so there’s light at the end of the tunnel.
My knee has never really recovered after a Baker Cyst I didn’t even know I had, ruptured.
I am currently under physios who are giving me a few more weeks of excersises before deciding wheather or not to send me back to Orthos for an arthroscopy.
Dharma had a small surgery on her wrist to release some tendons because she was constantly in pain when holding things like pens and cutlery. She’s still under physios until all the underlying healing is done and hopefully the pain subsides.
Marjorie’s foot is starting to hurt her again! But she just keeps getting on with things. She knows it’s a problem she has for life and has resigned herself to it.
Murron hasn’t done too bad this year. She still struggles with her anxiety at times BUT she deals with it and ploughs on when she can.
Now I’m really feeling depressed.
It’s now a week before Xmas and I just don’t feel Xmassy at all!!
Anyone who knows me will knows that I am usually ‘full on’ at Xmas. Starting with 2 weeks of annual leave at the end of November, beginning of December, so that I can prepare and not have to worry about work. Gift buying, decorations, cards, baking, the works. I did it this year but it felt like I was doing it under duress. I just am NOT FEELING XMASSY.
I haven’t even got a Xmas CD in the car.
The bad year in general, coupled with the fact my kids are all growing up too fast and the knowledge that I am working an early shift on Xmas day, may all be contributing factors to my general mood. I give it another couple of days before I start to feel the tingle!
I did catch myself humming to a Xmas song Dharma was playing yesterday, so there’s hope!
NOW!….THE GOOD STUFF!!
It hasn’t all been doom and gloom.
One family wedding, two new babies and 2 more proposals.
Ian is loving his new job.
Murron got herself an apprenticeship and started earning a full wage for the first time ever.
Unfortunately this has enabled her to go tattoo crazy, get a motor bike and generally partay! Can’t blame her.
Marjorie started her film/media course at college and is LOVING it!! She’s already talking about Universtity and she has expressed an interest in Directing. She also got herself a part time job at MacDonalds which she doesn’t care for too much but she loves the money. So until she finds something else she’s sticking with it.
College and a job has changed Marjorie so much. She has bloomed since the summer and is so much more confident in herself. I’ve been really surprised.
Dharma is doing OK at school. She’s into her GCSE’s now. She’s identified her weaknesses and is working on them. She’s doing her best and that’s all I can ask.
I do feel a little sorry for her at the moment because she’s finding it really hard seeing her sisters earning and spending money. She’s feeling a bit left out.
I am going through a mid-life crisis.
I know this doesn’t sound like ‘good stuff’ but I’m enjoying it so as far as I’m concerned, it’s all ‘good stuff’.
The catalyst was ‘Star Wars: The Force Awakens’ in December last year.
By the end of January this year I had seen it 10 times in the cinema and had become completely obsessed with Adam Driver and all his work.
He was joined by an obsession with Domhnall Gleeson that kind of crept up on me unexpectedly.
From these two actors alone my film collection has grown by 26 films.
Inside Llewynn Davis
Not Waving But Drowning
Star Wars: The Force awakens
This Where I Leave You
While We’re Young
Black Mirror – Series 2
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows parts 1 and 2
Never Let Me Go
True Grit (2010)
When Harvey Met Bob
Overall I think the collection has gone up by around 150 films and now stands at a a total of 1382!
I recently had the oportunity to see Adam in a Q and A after a preview screening for Paterson in London and that just topped off my year!! He’s amazing.
Curiosity got the better of me around April/May when I started reading fan-fiction and fell completely and hopelessly in love with the Kylux fandom. Stories around the the relationship between Kylo Ren and General Hux from Star Wars: The Force Awakens. Both characters played by Adam Driver and Domhnall Gleeson.
OMG! Hot stuff, fluffy stuff, angsty stuff. It’s got the lot and I can’t get enough.
I even started to write my own fiction which I have thoroughly enjoyed.
Of course, we’ve had the countdown to Star Wars Rogue One. Released on Thursday this week and we’ve already seen it twice!!!
Brilliant, Amazing, Funny, Gritty, So so good. Will definately be going to see it again.
That’s as much as I will say so I don’t spoil it for anyone.
My living room and dining room is a homage to movies and is currently looking a little on the Star Wars heavy side!! My Mum hates it but I don’t care. Me and Ian are Geeks. We’re not ashamed to flaunt our geekyness and embarassing the kids into our retirement is one of our joys in life. We don’t plan to stop anytime soon.
To say that my eyes have been opened to a few things this year is an understatement.
Mid-life crisis sexual awakening is an interesting thing!!
Seeing my eldest on a night out is something I’m debating maybe I shouldn’t have seen.
Having said that, I have loved the times I have spent out with her in recent months and If I hadn’t started going to Esquires I would never have discovered CC Smugglers!!
I am debating going out on New Years eve with her. Seeing the New Year in at the Barley Mow is quite appealing but I have to be at work at 10am the next day so I would have to be careful.
We’ll see. Watch this space.
Oh yes, how could I forget. I took Murron and Marjorie to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show on stage. AMAZING day.
and also, my discovery of a wonderful young man by the name of Riyadh Kalaf!!
Found him on Youtube and he’s given me some of the best laughs this year.
Look out for him in a new series for BBC three. He is currently filming a series about LGBTQ issues across the UK. No official title as yet so it is currently being called project rainbow.
The film that broke my heart this year has to go to ‘Holding the Man’
I have now watched it several times and I’ve read the book twice!! Something I have NEVER done in my life.
I blogged a review earlier in the year and that can be read HERE.
My favourite series of the year, next to Girls with Adam Driver, has been Queer as Folk.
It’s an old series that I got hooked on and it’s brilliant. I couldn’t get enough of it.
I just fell completely head over heels for Brain and Justin.
When I look back, my year has been quite gay!
And I mean that in the gay sense and not the happy sense. Gay seems to have been my kink this year and I absolutely love it.
So… what about next year…. OOH so much to look forward to.
But that is for another blog…… and it will most definately be including Star Wars!!
I really must get some work done today.
“The force is with me, I am one with the force!”
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