ONLY 4 MORE WEEKS!

That’s it then, 2 weeks of annual leave over with.

Good news though, it’s only 4 weeks until I have 2 more. Frightening thing is that that will be for Xmas preparations and that in turn means it’s not long until Rogue One!!

As I write this post the counter to the left informs me that it’s only 47 days.
I’m an itsy bitsy bit excited.

I’m sorry, but why do the bad guys always look soooo good!!

So what have I done in the last 2 weeks?

I went out for a meal and a movie for my birthday.

I’ve seen three films in total.
Miss Perigrine’s Home for Peculiar Children which was nothing special.
Inferno which was just as good as it’s predecessors and showcases Florence amazingly.
And Dr Strange which was surprisingly better than I thought it was going to be. I’d actually go and see it again.

The house has been given a bit of a deeper clean than normal and the gardens have had a tidy up.

I went out with Murron again!
Halloween night at Esquires.

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As she worked on one of the gig doors, I went to the main stage, on my own, and saw CC Smugglers!! AMAZING!! Even if I did feel like a bit of a loner.

Apart from all that, I have spent an unhealthy amount of time on my computer, Tumbling, Tweeting, Youtubing and reading fan-fiction and I have managed to write another short piece of my own.
No, I will not be posting a link here as I will admit, it’s an extremely naughty piece of writing but anyone who’s desperate enough to want to give it a go should be able to figure out where I post if they get a bit creative!! or if you message me nicely I may just let you know.

So, back to work bright and early tomorrow. Up before 6am but I’ll be home by 4pm as I’m still on short shifts for a while due to my knee problem.
That’s good news because my 3D Star Wars Force Awakens with more extras should be arriving tomorrow!
So 3D glasses and wine glasses will be out tomorrow night!

I seriously need to think about more Dish and Dishettes of the week. It’s been a while since I blogged about any as I have been totally smitten by my evil space boyfriends down in the Kylux trash can!

SOD 47!!!

Sod 47 years old.

Hubby just bought me lots of Rogue One Topps Trading Cards and I feel like a 10 year old!

Going to spend tomorrow morning sorting through them and placing them maticulously into their collecting display pouch.

Oh yes, went to see Inferno at the cinema tonight and one of the trailers before the movie was Rogue One!!
I got goose bumps. It looks so good on the big screen.
54 days and counting!!

THE MEANING OF LIFE

42!!

If 42 is the meaning of life then I am well and truly f#*’#d as I turn 47 tomorrow.
How totally depressing is that?

Overweight, unfit with orthopaedic problems.
I hate getting older.

There you have it.
Mid life crisis!

I have made a concious decision in recent weeks to fix at least two of the issue in the above list, weight and fitness, and this in turn should ‘help’ the orthopaedic problems.
Ideally the weight should be gone by August next year when I go to Italy for my Brother’s wedding.
The fitness should follow and I want to be fit by the time I reach 50.
Fit enough that I can take on some challenges that I am going to set myself on a bucket list. (I will post that when it’s finalised)

I’m hoping the hubby will get himself dragged out of the mire he’s got himself into and join me on this quest.
He’s always had back problems after an injury as a teenager, but now he has psoriatic arthritis to contend with as well and he’s relying on medication to control the pain.
The fact that he’s severely overweight isn’t helping.
When I tackle the subject of weight loss he argues that he can’t exercise.
My argument is that stuffing entire pizzas, pastry covered foods, cakes and sweets into his mouth is totally the wrong thing to do if you can’t execise doesn’t seem sink in with him either.

I know I’m no angel.
I love my wine and crispy snacks and dieting is going to be really hard.
I just worry that we are both going to want to head into retirement with different goals.
I want my hubby tackling the bucket list ‘with me’ and not watching from the sidelines.
One thing’s for sure, I’m not just going to sit and watch the world go by (unless it’s at a street cafe in some beautiful place around the world accompanied by a glass of wine!!)

Maybe, just maybe, if he reads this, it might just knock some sense into him.

So, not such a happy birthday tomorrow.
Last of the wine and snacks. Might just treat myself to a chow mein and then on Tuesday, the challenge commences.

HUGE SIGH!!!!

11:30am

I’ve been waiting for this moment all morning. I’ve been up since the hubby and Murron headed off to work at 7.
Marjorie and Dharma tootled off to college and school and then….
Mum arrived!

I love my Mum, I really do. She helps me keep the house in check while I’m at work. She does ALL my washing and ironing and has a little scoot around the girls rooms and keeps them in check too.
However…..

I’m now halfway through my first week of 2 weeks of annual leave.
My quiet mornings, especially on a day off, are precious.
I haven’t had it today.
So I got stuck into some cleaning while Mum pootled around with the washing and ironing.

She’s just left, the music has been switched off, all I can hear is the odd vehicle going past the house and the hum of the computer.
Absolute bliss!!

Time for a milky coffee and a blog. It’s too early for wine and I have to take Mum to the dentist a bit later so that will have to wait anyway.

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So, what’s been happening recently?…….

Marjorie hasn’t been too well. Looks like she had a bout of food poisoning after a dodgy McDonald’s breakfast before college 2 weeks ago.
She’s back at college after just over a week and a half of feeling completely rubbish. Still has the odd tummy ache but the worst is over. Just as well because she is going on a National Citizen Service experience on Saturday.
She’s staying away at a place called Overstrand Hall in Norfolk from Saturday to Tuesday for team building type stuff and then from Weds to next Saturday she’ll be doing more teamwork related stuff closer to home here in Bedford.
She’s a little nervous as she doesn’t know anyone she’s going with but she’s very easy going and quickly makes friends wherever she goes so I’m sure she’ll have a great time.

Dharma is recovering nicely after the surgery on her wrist. It’s a nice neat little scar. She just needs to give it all time to heal internally now before we can determe if the procedure has done any good.

Murron is….. well….. Murron!
She now has her own motorbike. Albeit a non-running one. She’s stripping it down and rebuilding it to get it running.
She’s doing OK with her apprenticeship. The thought of payday on the 26th of each month spurs her on but I think she’s actually enjoying the work environment much more than she’s letting on.

Ian has been having major pain issues with his back.
The psoriatic arthirits has thrown everything into chaos and the Muscular Skeletal Specialist he saw yesterday has said that there’s nothing to do surgically yet and that he needs to get his pain under control. So he’s being referred back to the pain team to discuss that.

And that leaves me.
My GP has referred me to the Muscular Skeletal team after the results of my MRI showed manical tears and cysts in my knee joint.
They apparantly ‘can’t’ refer me direct to the Ortho’s for some unknown reason so I’m having to wait now until 3rd November to see the MSK team.
They will probably want me to try physio before anything else but I will be arguing that I have never stopped doing physio since my initial injury 5 months ago!!
Although not horrendously painful, the knee is now giving me issues at work and by mid afternoon it feels like it could collapse or explode again at any point.
So if I don’t get referred from MSK to Orthos I will be a bit peed off to say the least.

Other than that, I have just kick started my get fit for Italy plan.
The plan is to lose as much weight as possible. I do need to lose a lot!!
But I refuse to give up my wine. It is Italy after all so what would be the point!!
I’ll just have to factor it into my diet.

Life is otherwise chugging along. Financially it could be better. We’re still struggling with Ian’s cut in wages but I think we’ve reigned the spending in a little bit better now. Time to start reducing the credit cards and getting rid of them.

I learnt a lesson yesterday.
I forgot that my wordpress blog and my tumblr accounts are both linked to my FB account.
It’s one of the reasons I don’t re-blog a lot of stuff I would LOVE to re-blog on Tumblr.
Basically, everything I post on either site gets shown on my FB account and my friends and family can click on the links to see the full item if they wish.

Well, yesterday I got a little carried away on Tumblr with a ‘prompt’ post.
One of the prompts reminded me of a piece of my own writing so I decided to post it from AO3 to Tumblr completely forgetting about the warning tags in that particular piece of writing!!
Not the kind of tags I wanted family or work colleagues to see!!
Thankfully my husband saw it and queried it with me rather quickly and I deleted it from FB.
I don’t think anyone clicked on the link. Either that or they are being too polite to say anything.

Crisis averted.

So what now?
Well, before I take Mum out I need a shower and as the shower also needs a clean I think I’ll strip down to do that first and then have my shower. Makes sense.

Wine time will be approximately 5pm today.

REGRETS

This is going to be a difficult blog to write without sounding bitter.

I’ll state from the start…..

I do NOT regret getting married.
I do NOT regret having my amazing kids.

But, as I meander through middle age, I think about the things that maybe I’ve missed out on.

I grew up with an amazing extended family, but they have always been very down to earth.
The whole point of life was to get a job, find a partner, get married, have kids, retire, have grand kids and that’s it.
I was always pretty much allowed to follow my own path but I was never in an environment that pushed for me to follow any kind of dream.
I was expected to find a job, find a partner, have kids, etc…..

After 21 years of marriage and three kids hurtling into adulthood, I’ve had time recently to indulge in things that a few years ago I wouldn’t have dreamed about and it’s made me think about what I missed out on before I got married.

As a teenager I was pretty isolated.
I had a few close friends but I didn’t explore who I was. I kept myself to myself. I lost myself in movies and locked myself away in my bedroom with my music, videos and magazines.
The internet was unheard of back then!

I started blogging over ten years ago. I used it as a kind of diary and a way to express myself as a stay home Mum. It now enables me to rant about things and obsess about things and I find it quite therapeutic.

Along came Facebook which I embraced like everyone else on the planet.

I found it harder to relate to Twitter. I’ve started trying it again but still don’t really get it.

Instagram is another one I’ve tried but don’t really use too often.

Tumblr!!! was a revelation. I love Tumblr. It feeds my obsessions nicely.

Youtube is a go to place when I need a laugh.
I use it to backup my blogs a lot but I have also learned to appreciate it for wonderful inspirational people. Some doing crazy things.
A recent discovery is a wonderful young man by the name of Riyadh (Riyadh k on Youtube)
This young man is full of life. He’s inspirational and has had the guts to live his life the way he wants. Most importantly, he makes me smile and he makes me laugh.
Oh yes, he loves his wine… like me!!

Then we have Snapchat. I only started this yesterday and I still have to get used to how it works, but I’m sure I’ll get there eventually.

I wonder what my teenage years would have been like if all this was at my fingertips.
I was over 20 years old before I had a boyfriend and I was 25 when I married him.
I never experienced anything else or explored my own sexuality.

Is this a regret?
Yes, I suppose it is.

I hope I have instilled into my kids the need to explore and find things out before they ‘settle’ down to anything that will tie them down.
I’ve tried to be very open with them about ‘everything’.

I think Tumblr would have been my place as a teenager.

I think all the revelations of the past couple of years have sent me into a midlife crisis.
I’m doing things I wouldn’t have dreamed about before (tattoos and clubbing) and I’m looking ahead to what I want to do when all of the kids have flown the nest.
Unfortunately my body is not cooperation on that one.

I seriously need to look at the next year and do something about my health before it’s too late. I want an ‘active’ retirement and do some of the things I didn’t do as a teenager!!

CAN I JUST POINT OUT?

Has anyone else mentioned how much the new Milk Tray man looks like George Lazenby?

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MURRON XX

Obligatory selfie with my, not so little, baby!!

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Heading off into town shortly.
Wish me luck!!

If my blog, Twitter and Facebook goes quiet…. send a search party!!