So today has been a relaxing between shifts day but it has been a little depressing!!

Continuing a bit of a recent facination for me, I decided to watch a docufilm called ‘Bridegroom’.

IMDB states….
Shane Bitney Crone’s plans to marry Tom Bridegroom in California after the same-sex marriage law is passed takes a tragic turn when his partner of six years accidentally dies and Tom’s family refuses Shane from attending the funeral.

It is an absolutely heartbreaking documentary about the life of Shane and his subsequent relationship with Tom that came to an abrupt end because of a stupid accident.
The film is made up of photo’s and videos of Shane and Tom and interviews with Shane and friends and Shane’s family.
The way Tom’s family reacted was horrendous and I found myself a blubbering wreck when the film finished.

So what do I do when that’s finished?
I carry on reading Tim Conigrave’s memoir ‘Holding the Man’!!

After falling in love with the film recently, I decided to read the memoir and I was struck by how much I actually have in common with Tim!
Apart from the obvious, I’m not a man and I’m not gay, we share the same taste in films and music and politics.

Something in the book but not in the film was the time Tim spent in Italy with John just before John started sucumbing to AIDS related illneses, specifically Florence and Tuscany, a place that I will be seeing for myself next year when I am there for my Brother’s wedding.
I have now reached the point in the book where they are dealing with the effects of AIDS.

I know the outcome of the memoir. I know that Tim died just 10 days after completing it and yet I am finding it compulsive reading and I just know that I will end up a blubbering wreck yet again.

Why do I do this to myself?!