I’m a little angry and also a little saddened by my husband and my kids at the moment.
Let me explain.
They all know I have little obsessions occasionally and one of their favourite pastimes is winding me up about them. Poking fun and trying to get me wound up a little bit.
It’s all done in good humour and that humour is always directed at me.
I take it and most of the time I give as good as I get.
l suppose the earliest ribbing I got was for an early obsession with Jonathan Frakes when Star Trek the Next Generation hit our screens.
My husband and club friends took great delight in winding me up with that one but it was all good natured and never turned nasty.
Over the last few years I’ve had various obsessions starting with Karl Urban, then onto Joel Kinnaman and Jake Gyllenhaal.
I started to notice a change with Joel Kinnaman.
He’s not your ‘usual’ square jawed all American looker and that’s probably one of the reasons I am so attracted to him as an actor.
He’s tall, he’s lanky, he is different and he has a unique acting style.
However, to wind me up, the hubby and family started to poke fun at him and his looks and I didn’t think too much about it at the time.
However, things have got a little too personal with my current obsession.
If you read my blog regularly you will know that there is hardly a post goes by without me at least mentioning Adam Driver.
This guy, besides being an amazing actor, is one of the sweetest most generous people on the planet.
But this man has struggled his entire life with one thing.
This struggle has made him extremely self concious and he struggles with it on a daily basis.
In interviews he looks very uncomfortable and finds it incredibly hard to take compliments.
He is so totally aware of what people think about him that he has even referred to himself as a “sight gag” which is totally heart breaking.
He says “I have been told before that I have an unusual face. But my face is my face. I had a whole life before acting, over the years. Lots of things have been said about my face.”
The first time he sat down and watched his performance in HBO’s Girls he states…
“all he could see was his own mistakes – that he has never seen anything he has been in since. ‘I’m full of self-doubt and self-hatred and things I want to change and can’t change. It’s better for me to do it and then not think about it.”
The only reason we get to see him now is because his time in the Marines has given him the confidence to just get up and do it and not think about the consequences.
So this is why I have started taking issue with my family poking fun at me at Adam’s expence!
I don’t think they realise just how hurtful their comments are now becoming.
The fact that my family are actually poking fun at someone because of how they look is extremely disappointing and upsetting to me.
I thought I’d taught them better than that.
The fact that my husband is also doing it and backing the kids up just breaks my heart.
The painful thing is, they just don’t get why I’m now getting quite upset by it all.
I want it to stop.
I know they will read this at some point so hopefully, when they realise I’ve felt so strongly about it that I had to put it into a blog, it might just get through their thick skulls that making fun of someone because of their looks, anyone and not just Adam, is not fun and in this case I’m actually beginning to get quite upset by it.
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